My Time to Blossom

A Very Sad Valentines Day

2008-02-14T12:08:00.002-05:00

I had planned to post a very cheery Valentines post to everyone in blog land.. Sure, I'm single, but any excuse to celebrate is always a good thing in my opinion.. So I get up this morning and my Mom tells me that Nicole Howard has died.. She's the daughter of a fellow member of our church.. I of coarse was heart broken for him, and his family.. He's a wonderful man and I really felt for him and regreted his loss.. My mom wanted me to sign into my Facebook account so she could see a picture of Nicole, to see if she recognized her.. She's a Deacon in our church and thought Nicole may have visited us some Sunday in the past.. So there I am signing into my Facebook, and on my home page is a group started in Nicole's memory.. I click on the page and up comes the beautiful face of one of my coworkers.. A girl who I often would stop to chat with and whom only two days before had been grinning and waving at me as she passed by my department.. I felt like someone had kicked me in the stomach.. How can this beautiful young life be over so quickly?? She had been going down the stairs to her basement.. She must've stepped wrong because she fell, something that has happened to all of us at some point in our lives.. Only for her, it would be a fatal fall.. Her life over, just like that.. I can't help but wonder what must've gone through her head as it happened, which is something we should never wonder.. So instead I'm going to remember that beautiful smile and cheery spirit.. Farewell, Nicole, we'll miss you!

I'm sad!! :-)

2008-02-12T19:11:00.000-05:00

So, I just found out that this boy I had/have a major crush on has a girlfriend!!! Stinky boy!!!! Bahhhh.. Now, he could just be a really nice person, but I could've swore there was a little chemistry there.. So yeah, not a HUGE deal, just disappointing.. It's fun to have a crush and to get excited about someone, and I feel kinda let down.. I still see him everyday at work, and I'm still nice and stuff, but I'm not going to be *as* nice.. lol!! Boys suck!!!! He's so dreamy too, he's got dark skin and hair, and these bright blue eyes.. (I'm seriously sighing here, just thinking about him.. Grrr..).. Anyway, that's why I'm sad..

On a brighter note my WI was today and I was down 2 pounds.. I really wasn't expecting a loss this week, so I was pleasently surprised..

I have the day off tomorrow, so I'll spend some time catching up on your blogs!! Hope everyone is having a great week so far! :-)

I Won!!

2008-02-07T11:24:00.000-05:00

So, a few weeks ago at work, the stores' manager asked me if I would be willing to be a nominee for the health and safety board.. The voting was to take place over a 3 week period.. I had secretly been thinking about the postition, but didn't say anything, so I accepted right away.. I was really flattered, but didn't expect to win.. I was up against 3 other store employees' all of whom had been there at least twice as long as me.. So yesterday I'm at work and I get a call from the owner of the store telling me that I'd won!! I'm so pleased!! So I'm now a member of the Health and Safety board.. Yay!! lol!! I don't plan on staying at my job forever, but I do plan to do the best job I can while I'm there.. Also, I figure something like this, along with being in customer service will look great on a resume someday..

Today is a much needed day off for me.. I plan on staying in my PJ's the majority of the day, and I'm thinking about getting into some Buffy here in a little while.. lol!! We're supposed to get up to 10 cm of snow today, so it's a good day to be snuggly and warm inside.. Hope everyone is having a great Thursday!! :-)

BOOOO-YAHHH!!!

2008-02-05T18:42:00.000-05:00

I am SOOO frickin' stoked!!! I'm exhausted and had a super long day at work, but I HAD to come and post this! I was down 4 lbs again this week!! I am rockin' it!!! Well, for now anyway.. lol!! This WI makes it a month that I've been back OP, and in that month I haven't gone over in points even once.. I'm super proud of myself, I've never done this well on the program before.. I know it isn't bound to last forever, there are always hard weeks and I'm ready for them!! Now I'm off to pig out on Hot and Sour Soup.. ((happy dancin'))

Auughh..

2008-02-04T10:09:00.000-05:00

Sorry I've been so quiet lately.. Work's been killing me!!! I get home and I'm just too tired to even think about what to write.. Okay, so being on your feet for 9 hours a day on a concrete-type floor is gonna be a killer for anyone.. But I'm carrying two freaking people here!! And no one at work seems to understand that.. Mind you, I doubt any of them have ever been fat.. I get home and I literally cannot walk.. Well, I can, it just takes me a good couple of minutes of moving incredibly slow before I can walk normally.. Most people would probably quit, save themeselves the pain, and the embarassement of knowing why that pain is there.. Not me.. Even though I'm frustrated beyond belief with my job, I refuse to leave it.. Why?? Because I spend the majority of most days on my feet and moving around.. Eventually I'd love a desk job, or even something a little less hectic, but for now working my sometimes crappy job is condusive to my weight loss.. Long story short, I'm sorry I don't post more, and I'm sorry I don't follow your blogs as closely as I'd like to.. But just cuz I'm not here everyday, doesn't mean I'm not kicking ass, or thinking about how you're doing.. Thank you to the people who keep checking in on my erratic blogging!!! lol!! love and hugs!!! xoxo

Another Day, Another Weigh In..

2008-01-29T18:06:00.000-05:00

I am extremely pleased to announce that I had another good weigh in this week.. Actually, I'm thrilled to say is probably more accurate.. hehe.. I was down 4 lbs this week!!!! Goooooo meeeee!!! :-) I know it only adds up to being 7 lbs altogther, but screw that!! I'm friggin' stoked!! lol!!

I have tommorrow and Thursday off work.. I am SO excited! I'll have lots of time to blog, and to just relax.. I do have a meeting tomorrow afternoon though, so I think I'm going to head in early and do some grocery shopping.. The kind where you actually stop and take the time to look at new things, (Sarah's shopping trip from the other day inspired me.. Thanks!!).. I'm excited to see if I can find some fun new things..

I'm a horror movie fanatic.. Zombies are my personal favorite.. I even have these crazy dreams where it's like Dawn of the Dead, and Zombies are taking over the world (or at least my world).. The craziest thing about these dreams?? I LOVE them!! lol!! It's like the best kind of horror movie in the world, up close and really, could it get anymore personal?? Love it.. So I bought The Invasion today at work.. It's with Nicole Kidman and Daniel Craig.. It's more about aliens I think, than Zombies, but whatevs', if there's a chance it'll scare me, I'm into it.. Anyway, I hope it's good! I never saw the original so at least I don't know what happens..

Can't WAIT for the Biggest Loser tonight!! I find it so inspiring.. I went on to EBay the other day to see if I could buy previous seasons because I find watching it really helps me.. They had EVERY Biggest Loser workout under the sun, but no seasons of the show.. What's up with that crap?? Grrr... Anyway, I'm totally cheering for the blue couple, the ones who just met before the show.. I can actually see them hooking up afterwards! lol!! GOO Blue!!! :-)

Chinese Food

2008-01-27T18:10:00.000-05:00

During my previous 'attempts' to loose weight on the Weight Watchers program, I never ate Chinese food.. I always figured that it would be WAY too high in points for me unless I used all my points, and I usually saved that pleasure for pizza.. Recently a friend and I got together for her birthday lunch and she wanted Chinese food.. I saved all my flex points, and the majority of my daily points for this meal, thinking it would be stupendous.. As I was eating I kept an eye on my serving sizes so I could check the points out later at home.. I was SHOCKED to see that my entire 'splurge meal' come to a whopping 14 points!! Okay, for some of you who are eating a lower amount of points per day due to their KICKASS weightloss, 14 may seem like a lot.. I get to eat 33 points a day, so this was a normal meal for me, well, close to one anyway. I was amazed! Then last night, I decided to have it again, I had lots of flex and daily points left for it.. I pigged out!! I got the hot and sour soup (this one shocked me the most!! 1 cup = 2 pts!!!), I got chinese noodles, singapore style with nothing but the noodles (3/4 c = 3pts), steamed rice (1/2 c = 2pts), chinese veggies with seafood (1 c = 4pts) and a veggie spring roll (3pts).. Is this not insane?? Okay, so the best part?? I woke up this morning and stepped on the scale, just to check out the damage (I have a couple of days left before weigh in), and I was down!!! I'm gonna eat Chinese ALL the time!!!! :-)

Another WI day!

2008-01-22T18:20:00.000-05:00

Just down 1 lb this week.. Not as much as I would've liked, but any step down the scale is a step in the right direction, right?? For dinner tonight I'm treating myself to one of my higher-point meals, my burritos.. I LOVE them.. I've cut out the guacamole though.. It's not too bad in small quantities, point wise, but I don't really have any points to spare with this meal.. So guac is a very, very special treat these days.. I had an exhausting day at work today, so I'm going to keep this really short.. I have Thursday and Friday off this week, which rocks, I'll actually have some nice blog time! Can't wait! :-)

Happy Monday!!

2008-01-21T10:30:00.000-05:00

I SOOO don't wanna go to work today!!! But I keep telling myself that it's better to go to work and be busy then to sit on the couch all day.. But oh how fun it would be to just be able to sit and blog all day, I have SO much to catch up on with all you guys!! Thanks so much for the supportive welcome back! I'm constantly astounded by how awesome all of you are.. Your support means SOOO much!!

I only have a minute before I have to go, but I wanted to mention this great salad dressing I tried on Friday.. It's a Kraft Signature dressing, Roasted Red Pepper with Parmesan.. I was surprised how much lower in calories it is than some of my calorie-wise dressings.. It was 0 pts for 1 tbsp, 1 pt for 1 tbsp, and so on.. Only 20 calories and 1 gram of fat for 1 tbsp.. The best part about it is that it spreads really well through the salad, so you don't need much of it and it has a great taste.. If you haven't tried it already you should check it out!!!

Weight Loss Gum???

2008-01-17T11:17:00.000-05:00

Not sure if any of you read about this in your morning papers, but I thought it was interesting and pretty thought provoking.. Apparently there is this gum, sugar free and made with sorbitol that causes involuntarily (at least up until now), weight loss.. The paper didn't publish the name of the gum, but with sorbitol being it's ingredient I can't imagine it would be difficult to find, wouldn't all gum with the same ingredient cause the same reaction? I have to think that there's a slightly universal amount of sugar or sugar substitute that is added to a stick of gum.. Anyway, I guess there are two cases, a male and a female, with no connection to each other, who both happen to have a fixation with chewing 18-20 sticks of gum a day. Over time both developed gastrointestinal problems and began to loose mass quanties of weight.. The woman, 21 and 114lbs, had abdominal pains lasting 8 months and lost 24 pounds.. The man, 46, developed diarrhea and bloating and lost 48 lbs over a year, a fifth of his body weight.. Neither changed their diets, or increased their exercise.. Wild, that just chewing gum could make that impact, but I guess it was documented previously that sorbitol could cause gastrointestinal problems..

The BIGGEST problem with all of this? The article was published in a British medical journal on Saturday, and already it's becoming an increasingly hot topic on websites supporting anorexia and other eating disorders, and is looking like it might become the next diet craze..

Now, being morbidly obese, I have to admit that a part of me thought, wow, I gotta git me somma that! lol!! Only for about 2 seconds though.. I know there are people who do basically the same thing by ingesting laxatives.. But would it not make them less 'guilty' of that type of purging if they were simply eating a few sticks of gum?? A part of me thinks that this gum should be pulled from the market, or at least it's producers should be forced to switch to another ingredient that doesn't cause so many problems.. Some would say that the people who are abusing the gum are mainly (hopefully), adults and should be responsible for themselves.. But if these adults are sick enough to starve themselves, couldn't it also be possible that they are unable to make a proper, healthy decision for themselves?

Ah, I could go on and on.. I'd love to hear what other people think about it, and I'm hoping there will be more articles on this subject in the future..

On a much lighter note, one of my best friends and myself are taking a shopping trip today.. I wish it were sunnier, but fun will be had nonetheless.. It's this little shop with all kinds of neat little things about half an hour away.. Should be fun. :-)

WI!!

2008-01-15T18:04:00.000-05:00

Weigh in went well.. I was down 2 pounds.. I was a little disappointed though, stupidly.. I mean, 2 lbs is a great loss, one that I'd normally be thrilled to see!! But I've found previously that I usually have a bigger loss my first week on points.. I know, bodies' change and stuff, but I still expected a teeny bit more.. Ahh well, in all honesty I'm finding just being on the program again a reward in itself..

I'm SOO excited for dinner!! I'm having Knorr Three Mushroom sauce, with a pile of medium shrimp and some rotini whole wheat pasta.. It's one of my favorite meals.. I just mix the sauce mix with some skim milk and reduced fat margarine, it ends up being only two points for a fair amount of sauce!! It rocks.. I LOVE Knorr!

I have new weight loss motivation at work.. I work at a No Frills superstore, so it has all the housewares and outside stuff that a Loblaws would have.. Recently they expanded our clothing section and put in a whole new Joe Fresh section.. I love it!! BUT nothing fits me.. Well nothing except for the socks, slippers, mittens, you get where I'm going with this.. lol! Anyway, they keep getting all of these new shirts and jackets that I love and not a single thing will fit me.. The biggest size they have is an XL, and the clothes tend to fit on the smaller side.. GRRRRRRRRR!!! I will have me that pretty red top!!!!! :-)

Good to be back

2008-01-14T19:50:00.000-05:00

I have officially been back on points for 7 days now, I am happy to say, although up until now I've kept it on the down low.. I guess I needed to make sure it was going to stick.. I'm not sure that anyone even reads my blog anymore, which is probably a good thing for the moment, since I'm a bit rusty at this.. I was shocked by how easy it was to get back on the program after being off of it for seven months.. I can't even believe I was off for that long!! I feel completely ashamed by that, and before you tell me I shouldn't, I think it's a pretty good motivator, it makes me want to work to make that feeling disappear.. So, tomorrow is my first weigh in, and I'm looking forward to it.. I'm thrilled to be back, and I feel amazingly positive about it..

Just in case anyone is still peaking in on my blog, I am thrilled to see how well some of my blog buddies are doing!! You guys kick ass!! I can't wait to catch up on what's been happening with all of you!! :-)

Quick Update

2007-06-06T16:59:00.000-05:00

Hey, bloggers!!! Just a quick post to let you know that everything's good! I have lots of news to share with all of you! I'm just feeling a little under the weather at the moment.. I had an endometriosis flare up, so I'm taking a few days to be crampy and icky and then I'll be back at'er!! Missing you though!!! :-)

It's Relay Day!!! :-)

2007-06-01T11:22:00.000-05:00

Today's the day!! I love the Relay, not only is it an amazing cause, but it's SO much fun! There are live bands all night, and Beaver Tails and chip wagons.. lol!! Okay, so no Beaver Tails or French Fries for me, but the band will be cool!! And everyone wears glow in the dark things.. Our team's motto for this year is "Say Anything", so everyone is to wear a tshirt that has a saying on it, like, shit happens or something like that.. Mine has a picture of Betty Boop and says, "I sold my soul for Rock and Roll" LOVE IT!! I'm gonna be the coolest chick there!!! hehe.. I'm also bringing a disposable camera so I can take pics to show you guys!! And in a little bit I'm heading to No Frills to pick up some veggie meat (talk about oxymoron), and some other low point snacks, as well as a little container of half and half cream. I figure it's better than Tim Hortons cream, and it's countable..

I don't have a whole lot of time today, so I'm gonna try to make it to your blogs but if I don't I'll catch up over the w/e! Oh, and no news yet on the appartment.. I'm pretty sure I didn't get it.. :-( I guess it just wasn't meant to be!

Thank Goodness!!

2007-05-31T11:39:00.000-05:00

I woke up this morning, not only motivated (thanks again), but HAPPY to be on the program!! You know that content, positive feeling you get just from following and loving the program, that's what I got back!! Yay!! I honestly was starting to wonder if I would.. Sheesh.. Anyway, I feel like I'm 100% commited and that feels great!

No word yet about the appartment.. I work until 9pm tonight, and I bet I'll be nervous about it all afternoon and evening.. I wish he'd just call!! But I kinda have the feeling that I won't get it, mainly because I don't know why the other person wouldn't want to grab it right up!! Thanks for all the finger and toe crossing!! I'll let you know when I hear something!! :-)

A Quick Thanks..

2007-05-30T19:23:00.000-05:00

I've been having one of those days where I'm not frustrated or anything, but maybe feeling a lil blah on the weightloss front.. Not that I'm quiting or anything, FAR from it, I just kind of feel like, damn am I ever going to get there?? So I read back through comments that all of you have left, especially over the last little bit with me not being around much.. You're supportive all the time, amazingly so, and I'm so thankful for all of you.. My motivation went from a 7 to a 10, just from reading words that you wrote, that's how much you guys rock!! THANK YOU! :-)

I made a few difficult decisions today regarding school and the move back to Kingston.. I'm still really unsure about what to do.. I'm really happy here too, and the other day at work I actually got a cash bonus for the good job that I'm doing.. Funny how hearing that made my job so much more enjoyable.. I don't think you can actually have fun doing anything that you think you might be doing badly, or at least that other people think you might be doing badly.. So that, combined with my uneasiness over my previous decision has made me decide to stay put, at least until next September.. I came to the conclusion that Kingston will still be there, the program is doing awesome, and isn't going anywhere and spending about $10 000 should involve a little more thought considering that could also be a down payment on a nice little house.. I just feel like I need more time..

The apartment that I've been wanting here in Renfrew just came available (which has nothing to do with my Kingston decision!), and I called the landlord tonight.. He had JUST shown it to some lady!! He said that he was sure she was going to take it, and that I should've called him yesterday.. How annoying is that?? He told me he'd keep me posted, and I'm pretty sure if she decided not to take it that he'd give it to me.. It's just so perfect and the gardens are awesome, big back yard and deck... I WANT IT!! lol!! So keep your fingers crossed for me, k? ~ xo

TaDaaaa!!!!

2007-05-29T17:21:00.000-05:00

Can you believe it?? Two days in a row!! Darn I'm good.. hehe.. I've had a loooonng day and I'm sleepy, so I'm feeling crazy silly right now.. I'm also feeling silly because of the scale experience I just had.. So yesterday I weighed myself, it was my 1st whole day back OP and the scale said 246.. Even typing that number makes me puke in my mouth a lil bit (sorry, that's a little crass but that's really how bad it made me feel seeing that number!).. Anyway, today I weighed myself and I was at 237!! Weird, eh?? Now, I posted yesterday that I thought most of that number was water retention and other stuff, but it seems like quite a jump to me.. I was just happy, and breathing a huge sigh of relief to see a somewhat normal number again.. It also made me realize how much I NEVER want to be there again!

That's it for today!!!!!!!

Oh, one more thing;

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Ohhhhh, My Gawd!

2007-05-28T18:06:00.000-05:00

Okay, so I'm back at it again.. It's cool because it wasn't a decision I made, it was something I felt I had to do.. My eating has just been way out of control and I totally feel 'puffy'.. Not to mention the 16 pounds I've somehow managed to pile back on *groan*.. I'm sure most of it is water retention and BM issues, but still, I NEVER wanted to see *that* number on the scale again!! Grrrr..

Why can't this be easier? I'm seriously not mad at myself.. I mean, I'm a little disappointed, but shit happens and I'm over it.. What's important is that I've been back OP all day today and that hopefully it'll stay that way.. I just have to figure out how I can make more time for blogging and for keep up with you guys, because that is what truly makes the difference for me, all of you and being able to keep up with you and stuff..

Thanks for all your supportive posts about going back to school! It's hard, but it needs to be done, and I'm not 'that' old right?? hehe..

I'm sorry if my gaps in posting has made any of you think I was planning on pulling a Houdini, that WILL NOT happen again! Time just got away on me is all, but I've been getting more regular days off now that I don't have to cover shifts for others, and we have a new girl in at work..

I'm doing the Relay for Life this Friday!! I'm looking forward to it but I'm a bit nervous.. My leg is much better now, but that'll be pushing it.. Maybe that's a good thing though? Maybe I need to push it a little beyond what I have already to get that extra confidence in it.. Anyway, I'm looking forward to it, but the eating part will be REALLY hard! Not sure what I'll do yet as far as points.. Maybe just allow myself all the coffee I want, but everything else has to be on points.. But then I'm also walking around a track on and off for the entire night so that's gotta count for lots of AP's, right?? I'll figure something out I'm sure.. lol!

Frustrated

2007-05-23T11:06:00.000-05:00

I cannot believe that it's been 12 days since I've blogged!!! That's almost 2 weeks!! Wtf?? lol! Seriously it feels like it's been a week or something.. I'm getting pretty frustrated with my job.. It's like I'm tired ALL the time! And it's messing with some of my relationships because after having people complain to you all day the very last thing you feel like doing is talking to more people! I know there's a difference, between bitchy customers and loving friends, but it's almost like my brain turns to mush the second I walk out of there! Which has brought me to my week of contemplation.. There's very little else for me to do where I'm living.. There isn't a college, there's factory work, but working on an assembly line isn't something that would make me happy.. And that's what I'm looking for in all this, happiness, and also the ability to support myself comfortably.. So yesterday, after realizing that I can't do this job forever, I applied to Esthetics at St. Lawrence college in Kingston.. I'd taken it before but was unable to finish my placement hours because of illness (long story).. So I know I'll enjoy it, it's a 10 month program and it's in a city that is home to me, where my bestfriend lives.. So keep your fingers crossed for me!! I haven't completely decided yet, I just kind of reached a breaking point and needed to make a move in a positive direction.. I feel badly for not including all of you in my thoughts over this, but I'm the type that closes up when faced with a difficult decision or situation..

On to the weight thing.. The frustration is here too!! There's something about the nice weather that sends my decipline flying out the window!! lol!! So that's definitly something I need to get back under control, especially if I'm going back to school, I'm gonna need me some confidence!!!

Oh, and the big thing that was going on the last time I posted was a baby shower!! One of my bestfriends is expecting in early July, so my other bf and I threw her a bigass baby shower!!! That's why I wasn't around much during that time, every day off was spent planning or shopping.. I'm SOO glad it's over, and also glad that it went so well!! :-) I'll see about posting some pics soon!!

Hope you're all doing well! I miss you all so much! :-(

Finally a Day Off!!!!

2007-05-11T18:31:00.000-05:00

Hey, guys!!! It feels like forever since I've posted! I hate work.. It stinks.. I'm sorry I've been so busy! I haven't been to your blogs at all lately!! I can tell you tomorrow another reason why I've been so busy, but until then it's top secret!! You'll understand why when I tell you, which actually probably won't be until Sunday.. I was supposed to have it off too but now I have to work.. :-(

So WI was Thursday, and I was down 1 lb.. Not much but I'm happy with it because I haven't been eating the greatest.. I find that when I'm working this much and I'm just so tired all the time that it's hard to eat really well, anyway, I'm starting to get the hang of it! I swear though, that 1 lb is totally because of work and how busy I am while working.. That's reason enough to make me never wanna quit my job!! lol!! Or at least no time in the near future!!

So I have some silly pics for you guys!! They're of new accessories!! lol!! But yeah, I looked like hell at the time and I took the pics myself so beware!!!

This is a picture of my new, very yummy, sunglasses! They're made by Juicy Couture.. They were regularily $155.00 + tax, but because my Mom used to work there and my Aunt still does (Thank you Aunt Debbie!! xo) I got them for $115.00.. They're delicious, I'm madly in love with them!!

Another pic of my sunglasses.. Nice face, eh? I have NO idea what I'm trying to do with my mouth.. lol!

My new hat!! I normally look AWFUL in hats! Actually I've never worn one for that reason.. They always look big and clumsy on me, and with my tiny forehead they just never fit right..

Well I gots me a kids hat, and it works!! lol!! Yay!!! This one is army green and has the word Girl in grey with little rhinestones on the words.. hehehe..

Another hat pic.. Really dark though, sorry! :-(

Here's the last pic, one of my new tattoo, my Luna Moth.. I love it, SOOO much.. But after I took these pictures I noticed that he screwed it up!! I don't know if you can notice it. I'm trying to decide how to handle it, if I should phone them and tell them I want it fixed.. I've never been in this position before!!! :-( Oh, and it does look a little unbalanced right now because of the way I had to move my arm to take the picture, it's normally not that messed up! Just, one wing is a little closer to it's body thank the other.. But both wings are the same size (I know they don't look like it here though!) That's why I'm making the funny mouth again, cuz it's a weird position..

And I should have more pics after tomorrow!! I tried on some clothes today, shirts, that didn't fit before that were tight around the spare tire, and they fit!! I was shocked!! So tomorrow I'm wearing my new size 2o+ jean capri's (I started at a 24+), and a new pretty white shirt.. I'm psyched! I love when stuff is looser!! I hope everyone is having a great weekend!!!

Just a quick FYI

2007-05-07T12:27:00.000-05:00

Hey, bloggers!! I'm sorry I've been kinda quiet the last couple of days.. I'm working LOTS, I barely have down time.. Grr.. Anyway, I should be free tomorrow afternoon so I'm hoping to catch up with all your blogs then!!!

Happy Saturday!!!

2007-05-05T05:16:00.000-05:00

Well, it's 6:15am on Saturday morning.. I've been up since 5ish and am getting ready for a looong 9 hour shift at work.. Bleck.. There should be a law against having to get up this early on a Saturday! lol!!

But it's supposed to be bright and sunny and warm, so I'll deal.. :-)

I'm excited for tonight, there's a Saturday Night Live special on, the 90's it's called, or something like that.. I guess kinda like a 'best of'.. Well I loved the 90's at Saturday Night Live.. That's when they had all the greats!! Will Ferrel, Adam Sandler, Mike Myers, Dana Carvey, I could go on and on but I won't! lol!! So if you're an SnL fan you should check it out!!

Have a very happy, sunny Saturday blogland!! xo

Oh My Goodness!

2007-05-03T21:16:00.000-05:00

I am SO tired.. What a long day.. I didn't sit once in the entire 8 hours I worked, and I know people do that everyday, but not many of them do it carrying this amount of weight around.. lol!! It's cool though cuz when I feel this tired I think, hmmm, but maybe the scale will be down a bit next week.. I think that's one of the biggest things I like about my job, and for so long I've been dealing with these short shifts, it'll be nice getting some long ones again!

Soooo, thanks for the skinny vibes!! :-) I'm down 4 lbs this week.. It's funny cuz within the first 4 days I jumped down, probably because it was mostly water retention, and then stayed the same the last few.. I find it hard when that happens.. 4lbs is an awesome loss, and I'm SO psyched about it, but when you weigh yourself that early in the week you almost try to loose more and then get disappointed when it doesn't happen! lol!! I know, easy answer, stay off the scale.. But heck, I'll take the disappointment, I love weighing myself often! Well, maybe 'love' was too strong of a word.. lol! Either way, I'll take it!!

A few things that I need to work on for this WI week: get my water intake wayyyy up and cut at least some of the snacking at night, even if it is within my points (I like to have some flex left at the end of the week, not all, but maybe 1/4 of them)..

Happy Thursday!!

2007-05-03T10:59:00.000-05:00

Thanks everyone for all your great comments!! I feel so loved! You totally made my day! And I'll need that positivity.. I woke up this morning and found out that my boss had phoned and wants me to work until 9pm! Bleck!! I'm pretty annoyed, but what can you do?? Needless to say I was in a VERY grumpy mood until I read your comments, so THANK YOU!! The town of Renfrew will meet with a much nicer customer service person today thanks to you! lol!! (Nah, I'm always nice, but I'll enjoy my day more now that's for sure!)..

I think the thing that was annoying me the most was that I had plans for today! My shift was only a 4 hour one, which I love.. Today is my first WI back on track, but I don't WI until evening, well afternoon but now it'll be evening! And I was wanting to come home and spend some time blogging before Survivor and Greys and the gazillion other shows I watch on Thursday nights.. Ohh, well, that's why they call it work right?

So I won't have a WI update now until tonight, I'm pretty sure I know what it'll be so I'm not too nervous.. I hope everyone has a great, Sunny, Thursday!!! :-) And thanks again! I love you guys!! ~oxoxo

Just Cuz..

2007-05-02T17:55:00.000-05:00

On my blog an excuse is NEVER needed for posting a picture of Jim Morrison..

Isn't he loverly?? ~sigh~

I'm Back..

2007-05-02T12:59:00.000-05:00

For the life of me I couldn't think of a better title than that, but I guess "I'm Back" does sum it up.. For some of you this will be a repeat, and I'm sorry you have to hear it all again.. lol!! For those of you who haven't, this post is simply me apoligizing for being away for so long.. More importantly, for being away without taking the time to tell you what was going on.. If I worried any of you I'm terribly sorry.. I went off the program, and stupidly assumed that if I wasn't on program that I'd have nothing to say that people might want to hear.. Dumb eh?? What I've come to realize through all of this is that I've made some amazing friends, friends who are my friends whether I'm loosing weight or stuffing my face.. I'm sorry it took this to make me realize that, but I did and I'm glad that I did because I feel closer to these people now.. I hope with all my heart that it will do the same with those of you who haven't heard from me at all in the past month..

This is the story..

I posted on the board a few months ago about having really dry scalp and dandruff.. This is something I've thankfully never had to deal with before now, so I didn't handle it very well.. I was advised by people on the board and by my pharmasist to use special shampoos, which I didn't do.. I tried instead to take oil supplements and to up my water intake.. When I noticed a dry patch of skin I wouldn't leave it alone I'd try to scratch it all off.. lol!! I'm such a dumbass sometimes.. So of coarse it kept getting worse and worse, and more and more stressful.. Then one day I noticed that I'd actually lost a significant amount of hair on the front of the top of my head, enough that it made the icky white scalp beneath glaringly obvious.. Anyway, I kinda lost it at this point.. It was one thing when I had dandruff, but my hair falling out? Right before my 30th birthday?? Not cool.. People kept telling me that it was probably stress related since it happened after I started my job.. So I not only tried to remove ALL stress from my life, I just gave myself free reign to do whatever I wanted, and to eat whatever I wanted.. It was a really hard period for me, I was crying constantly.. I have a very public job and I felt like there was a flashing arrow above my head pointing it out..

I'm not making excuses for why I didn't let any of you know what was going on, I fully admit that I handled that badly and I'm truly sorry.. I just thought that you would all be disappointed in me, or try to convince me to stay on program while this was happening, and I just didn't want to hear it, I guess.. Mostly I was afraid you'd be disappointed..

So I'm back, and I'm sorry for being away.. I've learned that no matter what's going on in my life that my friends are my friends and that they're there whether I'm loosing weight or eating a tub of ice cream, and I won't ever disappear like that again.. For those of you who are just hearing this for the first time, I hope very much that you'll continue to visit my blog, and forgive me for being such a shit.. :-)

Yummiest Brekkie/Lunch EVER!!

2007-03-30T10:16:00.000-05:00

Morning bloggers!!! It's an okay day here in Eastern, Ont., the sun is trying really hard to come out which is great!! For a little while there I thought I actually 'would' be working the Garden Center in the rain.. lol!!

I don't talk much about what I eat on here, for some reason it's still a private thing for me, I don't really get why, but I don't think I could post what I eat everyday.. Anyway, I don't mind posting about the odd, really yummy, meal.. This morning for breakfast I toasted a whole wheat english muffin, sprayed it with the Becel cooking/topping spray, used two veggie salami slices, one on each side of the eng muffin.. Divided one No Name light cheese slice (these are really good, they taste exactly like Kraft but cheaper, MUCH better than Black Diamond too), between the two halves.. Here's the good part.. I bought these little cartons of egg whites, and they're really yummy!! Who needs yolks?? Not this chick.. So for 8 tbsp it's only 1 point!! I used the Becel spray in a shitty non stick pan, and divided the eggs between the two eng muffin halves, on top of the cheese, and it was AWESOME!!!! And only 4.5 points.. The two veggie salami slices are only .5 points, so that's a REALLY good deal.. Now, I love these things, I use them on sammiches too.. I think that you might like them with eggs, and they're a lower point alternative.. They're made by Eyves, yeah I'm probably spelling that wrong, but I don't have time to go check!! lol!!

Thanks for all your comments yesterday!! :-) And have a great Friday!!

the only thing that was missing...

2007-03-29T18:39:00.000-05:00

So, today started my crazy tanning obsession!! lol!! I was sitting here and all of a sudden thought, I need to go tanning.. So I called up the tanning salon that's just down the street from my house and they had an opening!! Yay!! So I slipped on my way too baggy blue jeans and my pretty pink crocs and off I went.. It was wonderful!! The ONLY thing that was missing was a nice pitcher of Margaritas!!! SUMMER, HERE I COME!!!! :-)

So my WI tonight was exactly what I thought it would be, so no exciting news there.. I'm down 1 lb.. I have to admit that I was a lil annoyed, I know a pound is great, but who doesn't want to loose more?? So in a way it's just fueled my fire for next week!! Now, please don't get me wrong, I am VERY happy that I lost a pound, I'm just the type that always wants to do one better than what I actually accomplish.. lol!!

Today was a beautiful sunny day here in the Ottawa Valley!! Work was good, but slow.. They're opening the Garden Center tomorrow and I get to work there for about 45 min, just covering someone's break, and I think that's gotten me all ready for the summer and beautiful weather!! Watch it start pouring!! lol!! That would be too funny.. Hope everyone had a great Thursday! ! :-)

OMG!! I can't believe I forgot to tell you!! When I got back from tanning, after hiking my damn jeans up the whole walk there and back, I decided to try on my size 20's.. And to my pleasant surprise I can almost do them up!! I was REALLY shocked by this since a couple weeks ago I could get them up over my thighs and ass, but couldn't come close to fitting them over the tire!!! And I could 'almost' do it up!! I probably wouldn't have been able to come close to zipping them, but it's still a huge NSV for me!! Yay!!!

Happy Over-The-Hump Day!! (hehe, not Jens kinda hump day! lmao!!)

2007-03-28T16:31:00.000-05:00

Don't have much to say today.. I'm really sleepy.. I ended up opening this morning at work and got up a little after 6am, and went to bed at midnight.. Not too smart, Jen.. lol!! But I don't work until 1pm tomorrow so it's all good, I can sleep in a lil..

Weighed myself this afternoon and I was down 1 lb, which is good.. I was actually a little surprised what with the new exercise I'm doing..

Work was stressful, as always.. I get so made at people sometimes, they return the stupidest things!! Like, I had one customer who had bought a package of 6 donuts that were good until March 31 (this was also two days ago), and he returns them and wants his money back cuz they're stale.. But he's already eaten half the donuts!! Now, I'm sorry, but it doesn't take three normal sized donuts to realize that something is stale!! Can you say, ripping off the store?? lol!! Man.. But we're very 'the customer is always right', which I get, but I also think there should be a limit, especially since this guy apparently does this ALL the time!!

Okay enough customer bashing.. He's a really nice man, and I shouldn't be speaking badly of any of my customers.. It's just that sometimes, in my mind, I think that's pretty close to stealing them.. But then I tend to be hard on people sometimes.. lol!!

I LOVE Care Bears!!! If it wasn't weird I'd start buying them.. lol!! So I'm gonna post a care bear for you, from this awesome site I found!!

In honor of all of you, I'm posting Friend Bear! :-)

Need a good friend? Friend Bear would love to be your best buddy Bear! She's the perfect example of a friend. She's caring, likes to play with you and she's fun to be with!

Her Caring Mission ~ She shows how to be a great friend..

Symbol ~ Her twin, smiling flowers symbolize the joy of friendship..

Personality ~ Kind and friendly..

Character Quirk ~ A real chatterbox, she doesn't always know when to be quiet..

Best friend ~ Love a lot Bear

Motto ~ I've got a friend for you - ME!!!

lol!!! Isn't that the cutest thing ever?? When I have kids, they're getting Care Bears!! They're awesome and teach really important things!! Yeah, I'm a lil cheesy, so what!! lol!

What the heck is that big yellow ball in the sky?

2007-03-27T13:14:00.000-05:00

Could it be??? YAY!! It is, the sun!! lol!! I swear it's been FOREVER since I've seen you!! And what better day to shine than the day I have to get out there and clean up the back yard?? I love my dog, but there's always a time after the snow melts when I question whether being a pet owner is really all it's cracked up to be.. hehe.. I'm just joking, it's not that bad, and I would NEVER trade her for anything in the world!! Plus, it's exercise right?? I'm also determined to get onto the elliptical and to do my strength training.. I've been very religious with it so far.. On my days off work I do 20 min/2 km on the elliptical and then 40 minutes of strength training.. This is only my second week doing it, but already I feel like it's becoming routine.. I'm not expecting much of a loss this week though, actually I'd be happy to STS.. It seems like whenever I start to workout it takes a bit of time for my body to get used to it and for those muscles to actually start working to burn the fat.. I'm okay with it though cuz I know it's good for me and in the long run it's going to make the difference!!

Thanks so much for your awesome posts yesterday!! I totally cried!! You girls ROCK!! And once again I'm left wondering, what would I do without you??? ~ xo

Sick of being in the Fat Chick Mafia..

2007-03-26T18:24:00.000-05:00

I'm not sick of blogging or talking with any of you, but I'm sick of being fat, or rather the mentality that comes with being fat.. Today at work I saw this girl that I used to go to school with.. Now, she and I were never friends, we have/had friends in common though and would say hello when we saw eachother.. I haven't seen this girl in a few years, but she hasn't changed at all, and I haven't really changed that much besides the fact that I'm bigger than I was.. I have NO idea if she saw me or not, but she didn't look over and say hello when she came into the store, even though she had to walk by Customer Service where I work.. What pisses me off isn't that she didn't say hello, cuz in reality I don't care about this girl beyond normal human compassion.. What bothered me is that I equated it to my weight, she didn't say hi because she was embarassed to say hello to a fat chick.. Why do I do that?? I don't always think that way, but then usually my confidence is relatively good.. I didn't feel like I was having a low self-esteem day until after that happened and I was trying to figure out my reaction.. Now, I joined facebook a few days ago and am reconnecting with a lot of high school friends, and while NONE have made me feel that way and all have been happy to add me or message me, I still have this old high school feeling about it all... Could it be that I've reverted into past ways of thinking?? Strange, isn't it??

Thanks for all your posts yesterday!! I am going to post some progress pics soon.. I'm thinking when I get home from Kingston that I'll have some good ones to share with you.. I still think that the changes other people are seeing are minimal, I have incredibly supportive people in my life and sometimes I think that they comment on 'little' things so that I feel postive, and I SOOO appreciate and love them for it, I'm just not sure there's much to take a picture of at the moment, if you know what I mean.. lol!

My WI was on Thursday, and I've decided to really pay attention to my point intake.. I think it really helps your weekly losses if you eat different amounts daily, kinda like Wendie.. So I had a normal day on Friday, two higher days Saturday and Sunday, and am trying to have a lower day today.. I don't actually follow Wendie, she's my big gun that I'm saving for when I need her, but I'm trying to incorporate the idea of Wendie into my daily eating.. I'm pretty sure that's why I had that really good loss the week before last (actually it was Sarah that pointed that out to me, THANK YOU!).. Tonight for dinner I'm making one of my usuals, whole wheat rotini pasta with primavera sauce and lotsa shrimp.. I stocked up on Smart Pop today so I'm all set!!! Okay, I'm off to check up on all of you!! Thanks for listening to my rant!! :-)

Grooooaann

2007-03-25T15:15:00.000-05:00

So last nights' dinner went really well!! The spaghetti turned out really well and my Uncle said that I can do amazing things with ground soy.. He said that he wouldn't even know it wasn't ground beef.. Which from him is a very big compliment, as he does enjoy his meat.. And it's a lower fat alternative which is great.. If you ever want to try it let me know and I'll give you all my secrets.. hehe.. lol!! I made garlic bread with that pre-mixed garlic butter, fresh bread and regular mozza cheese, it was SO good, and I only allowed myself one very small piece.. I even had a tablespoon of fresh parm.. Mmmm.. The one bad part? I drank too much wine!! I'm actually not sure why I'm surprised by that.. So most of my points were from wine, but thankfully because I was well behaved during the day, I only had to use 9 flex.. Yay!! But now I have an icky hangover and the munchies! lol!! That's okay though, if I use any flex I prefer it to be well before WI day..

I got quite a few NSV's last night.. I wore one of my prettier shirts and my blue jeans, and I guess it was obvious that the spare tire had deflated a lil bit.. I was thrilled by this news!! I have a hard time noticing a difference since I see myself everyday.. I have noticed that my clothes are getting bigger around my middle, but I wasn't sure it was obvious yet.. I have this beautiful pink shirt, I should take a picture of it to show you I always forget I can do that! lol!! Anyway, when I bought it, it was really tight around my belly so I've never been able to wear it.. Today I tried it on because I would LOVE to be able to wear it in Kingston at my bday dinner, and it fit!!! YAY!! It's baggy, but not super baggy, which is good.. So now I just have to buy some new shoes and figure out what jewelry to wear! :-)

We had birthday cake at my Grandma's this afternoon for my Mom's bday.. I hadn't eaten yet since I'd slept pretty much right up until we had to go.. hehe.. Damn hangover.. Anyway, I brought one of my Skinny Cow sundae cups with me (2 points!!) it was yummy and I didn't mind at all that I didn't get to eat any cake!!! But since my bday is next there was lots of talk about cake and dinners, and I'm afraid there's gonna be lots of poundage gained around that time.. I'm going to Ktown the weekend of the 13th, and I've planned to not count points and just have a treat myself weekend for that time.. BUT, I don't want to do that over my real bday weekend.. So, my cousin asked if I wanted to go out to dinner that weekend with another cousin (he and I share a bday, both on April 9th).. I picked the restaurant and they've got a really yummy Greek pizza that's not too bad point wise.. Afterwards we'll be going back to my Grandma's for Dairy Queen cake (my favorite), and I'll have some of that.. And then Monday night we're having a family dinner here for me, but again I'll get to pick what we eat.. Sooo, I'm thinking I'll just have to be really strong that weekend, as it's also Easter weekend, and we always have a big family dinner to celebrate on the Sunday after church.. I have to be tough!! Sorry, this is really long, I'm gonna stop babbling now!! lol!! Hope you all had a great weekend!! :-)

Ahhh, the weekend..

2007-03-24T12:23:00.000-05:00

I feel like I haven't posted in forever!!! Yesterday before work I wanted to, but was having internet connection problems, so I didn't even get to check anyone elses blog!! Grrr.. I worked until 9pm last night and was SOOO stressed out when I got home because I had THE WORST customer in the world.. Even bigger Grrrr.. So here I am and it's already Saturday and I feel SO out of touch with blogland! lol!!

Thankfully I have the weekend off work.. My Mom's birthday is tomorrow, so tonight we're having my Aunt, Uncle and Grandma over for dinner.. I'm making a huge pot of veggie spaghetti (made with ground soy instead of ground beef).. With lots of garlic and fresh mushrooms.. It's great too because that recipe is completly points friendly.. I'm making them loaves of garlic bread with lots of garlic butter and regular mozza cheese on top.. They'll also have lots of fresh parm for their pasta.. I'm not sure if I'll just use a little fresh parm or go with my already grated Kraft parm.. lol!! For desert we're having fresh fruit, and I'm making a cool whip dip with lemon jello crystals mixed in for flavor.. It's awesome, and the cool whip is light, so I'm going to make a little with my sugar free jello too.. All in all it should be a very point friendly evening for me.. Except for the gallon of wine I'm planning on drinking.. hehe.. Not really a gallon, but quite a few glasses anyway.. I LOVE red wine and I never let myself have it, so it's my treat for the week.. Tomorrow afternoon we're having cake for her at my Grandma's house, and I of coarse, will bring my own seperate little treat to have while they're eating yummy cake..

It's funny though, you'd think that I'd be feeling cheated, or sad because I can't eat everything they can eat.. But I totally don't! It's all worth it to me.. And my birthday w/e in Kingston is coming up soon and I don't plan on counting the entire time I'm away.. I'm cool with the 2, 3 or 4 pounds that I'll put on, and then I'll work hard the next week to take it all off.. It's keeping me on track knowing that I can have my own cake soon.. :-)

Hope everyone is having an awesome weekend!!! I'm determined to get all caught up with each and every one of your blogs very soon!! :-)

It's that time again...

2007-03-22T20:50:00.000-05:00

So, I've decided to keep Thursday as my WI day.. Mainly because when I got to work, still undecided, I noticed that the schedule has me working the same shift next Thursday, but that next Fridays shift is a short one too.. After a moment of frustration I realized that's the way my job is, I don't have a set schedule, my shifts are rarely the same.. It's silly to move my WI days around my work schedule.. I know what I need to do on/before WI's, that's all that matters, so I decided right there that I was sticking with Thursdays!! I'm such a geek sometimes, I swear!! lol!!

Soooo *drumroll* I weighed in when I got home from work and I was down 2 lbs!! Yay!! I'm pretty psyched about it because I was positive I'd stay the same this week after having a better than normal WI last week.. So yep, I'll take it!!

So to celebrate my happy WI I treated myself to my usual post WI meal, a super yummy Dr. Oetker's mozzarella pizza!! I topped it with some onion, tomato and a few sliced green olives.. I love me some pizza!!! It's probably one of my biggest weaknesses, but I figure it's an okay one as long as it's in moderation and it's not the fast food greasy kind.. The good thing about having it the night of my WI is that I have a whole week to redeem myself.. lol!!

Thank you guys for all your supportive comments today!! You rock, and it's SOOOOO appreciated!! :-)

It's a blustery blahhh day here in Eastern Ontario

2007-03-22T10:21:00.000-05:00

Yep, it's icky outside and I feel icky!! I kinda feel like Eeyore actually.. lol!! Today is supposed to be my WI day.. But since my work schedule came out, I've been thinking I should switch my WI to Fridays.. I always get my best results after working a long shift, and I USED to get those shifts on Thursdays, but for the last lil bit (last week not included), I've been getting shit shifts on Thursdays and Fridays have been my long shifts.. So I think that's why I'm cranky, cuz I can't make up my mind.. I like to weigh in on Thursdays, but I really like what I see after a long day of work.. I think I'm feeling a little pressure because I normally weigh in on Thursday nights, so I feel like I have to make up my mind before WI time or it's cheating.. Like you can't see your WI and then decided to WI the next day instead, you know?? Bahh..

For the most part Weight Watchers is a very positive experience for me, mostly because I feel healthier and I know I'm doing something about my weight and that combines to make me a much more positive person.. But last night right before bed I got super angry all of a sudden. It was SO strange! It was all I could do not to bawl like a little baby.. I think I just got sick of caring so much, of having SO many emotions tied to loosing weight.. Of having to try so hard all the time.. I shook it off and went to bed, but I'm still feeling a bit of that this morning.. I'm not sure if any of you ever experience that kind of frustration with the program.. Maybe it's just because I have this weigh in day dilema underlying it.. Grr..

I'm going into work an hour early today so I can shop for makeup, that should brighten my mood a little bit.. lol!! But I wanted to thank all of you for your awesome comments about my willpower and the junk drawer at work.. Reading those comments this morning REALLY made a difference for me, like you gave me some sunshine on a grey day, if that makes sense.. Thank you for that!!

Justice is Served!!!

2007-03-21T16:20:00.002-05:00

So I go into work today and what do I hear from my head manager as SOON as I get there?? They got the shoplifter guy!! Not only did they get him, but they got my camera back!!! YAYYYY!!! So he'll be prosecuted and all that good stuff.. I almost want to go to court just to see it! lol!! Seriously I totally took it personally.. I guess I don't have a whole lot of experience with shoplifters.. Anyway, they got him and the camera and that's all that matters!!

I picked up some Weight Watchers bread today, I can't believe that it's only 1 point for 2 slices.. That just seems amazing to me.. I'm SO proud of my little town, or more importantly my store, because we actually have a lot of the products that I see mentioned in other blogs or on the GDT.. I'm also really loving all of the Knorr pasta sauces (thanks Amanda!!), I tried the Primavera last night with shrimp and whole wheat rotini, it was SO good!! And today I picked up the Creamy Garlic.. OHHH, and I also found some cinnimon hearts that have a nutrition label!! Normally they come in these little square packages with no NI listed, but at work we sell them in bigger tubs (a co-worker bought some NOT me!! lol!), and there's actually NI on the label.. So if any of you like'em and want to know the info let me know!! We have a junk drawer there, in the Photo Lab, and they keep it stocked with everything, every kind of chocolate or candy you can imagine.. I have a fat picture of myself on a ledge right above it, so I'm never tempted to go into the 'junk' drawer! lol!!

Happy Hump Day!!! hehehe..

2007-03-21T10:12:00.000-05:00

Morning blogland!! It's bright and sunny here and the snow is melting away (again)! I heard on the radio that it's supposed to go up to 12 by the end of the week!! WOOHOO!! I'm SOO ready for that!!!
I'm sure all of you have tried these lil gems before, but just in case you hadn't I had to give them a shout out.. I LOVE them!! I just had one for breakfast with a Source raspberry cranberry crumble and an All Bran bar, and I feel great! The best part?? They're only 1 pt!!! Now I'm a bit of a cheese freak, but I've ALWAYS loved Babybel cheese, and when I found out I could still eat them I was pretty psyched.. With a couple crackers they'd also make an awesome afternoon snack!

Well, I'm off to work now!! I don't have time to check any of your blogs this morning unfortunetly, cuz I'm running a little late, but I'll be checking in when I get home from work!!! Hope everyone is having an awesome day!! :-)

Yayyy!!

2007-03-20T18:52:00.000-05:00

So I spent most of my afternoon at the GDT and was inspired by a particular post.. I guess this girl wasn't feeling well today, bad head cold (not me), and wanted to know how many people workout when they're sick.. At this time I still felt pretty awful, but I read all of the replies and kept up with it throughout the afternoon.. Low and behold because of that post I was inspired to get off my butt!! I did 40 minutes of strength training exercises that I actually found on the Weight Watchers website.. They have exercises that cover upper body, lower body and core body.. I really liked them and could totally feel it afterwards... Well doing those exercises inspired me to get on the eliptical, so I did 20 minutes on there too!! I'm feeling pretty darn good right now!! Thank you for all your replies about working out, I really appreciate hearing all the different perspectives!! :-)

Kind of Annoyed

2007-03-20T10:15:00.000-05:00

So I have the day off work today, and I had all of these great plans! I was going to eliptical, and then start a strength training routine that I would do along with the eliptical on each day off work.. I was all psyched about it because weigh in is on Thursday and I thought, what an awesome time to start this!! I keep hearing from people that it's bad to workout the day before a weigh in, so I thought Wednesday would be out for that reason.. I was SO excited! I even got help from Shaunna (thank you!!) deciding what weight my dumbells should be to start off with.. So then I wake up this morning and I feel like crapola!! lol!! I'm just blah.. And I'm afraid that I'd passout if I did any of the things I was excited about.. Grr!!! So instead I'm going to blog, spend some time on the GDT and download some music for my new toy.. Oh, and I'll probably take a LONG nap later!!

My question to you fine people is this, what are your opinions on working out the day before a WI?? Because if I'm feeling better tomorrow I may want to get on the eliptical for a little bit, or at least do the weight training thing.. Any thoughts?

Happy Birthday To Meee!!!

2007-03-19T18:25:00.000-05:00

Okay, so it's not really my birthday.. BUT last night I got my first birthday present! :-) My birthday isn't until April 9th, a long while away yet.. But, my Mom, her husband, and my Grandma decided to go together and get me this pretty lil MP3 player from Sony.. I told my Mom that we had one at my store and that I really wanted it and she, knowing me SO well, knew that I'd want it early.. I'm taking the train to Kingston on the 14th of April, she knew I'd want to know how to use it and have all my songs downloaded long before then, which gives me lots of time to play with it.. I'm not sure if you can tell from the picture, but it's pink, and it holds 18 hours of music.. Not only that, but it comes with an armband so you can strap it to you when you're jogging or working out.. It also counts calories, has a stop watch and you can program it to play faster songs when you're moving at a faster pace, or slower songs when you slow down.. It'll just do all that on it's own!! And it's got a stopwatch, and you can program it to tell you when you've walked a km, or whatever distance you choose.. Isn't that cool?? Technology kills me! lol!! So I'm pretty excited about it, and am making lists of songs that I want to put on it.. My favorite thing about it?? The colour of course.. It'll match perfectly with my pink camera, and my pink cell phone.. Hee hee.. :-)

I had a pretty stressful day at work today.. On the weekend someone stole a $400 camera from my work section.. I was the only one working at the time, and it's always busy in our area, but I STILL feel responsible.. The security system that's supposed to prevent things like this from happening doeesn't work, so I had no way of knowing until I noticed that the camera was gone.. It sucks because I feel like he stole from me, not from my store.. Today was difficult because all of my bosses were in and the police were contacted.. I just felt so awful about it all.. I wish I knew who it was so I could hunt him down and kick his thieving ass!! I hate people like that!! Grrr.. Anyway, thanks for the vent! I talked to my head manager who I LOVE and she made me feel a lot better about it, and assured me that it can happen to anyone and not to worry about it, but to use it as a learning experience.. I felt much better after that.. I'd still like to kick his ass though.. :-(

Starting to feel much better cold wise! Thanks for all of your get well wishes! :-) I have tomorrow off work so I'm determined to do some psychology homework and get in some good workout time!! I want to see another loss this week!! I think I'm getting greedy, but in this case, I think greed is okay.. Well, I'm off to check out all of your blogs, hope you had an awesome Monday! :-)

Icckkk

2007-03-18T09:59:00.000-05:00

I feel super icky today!! I'm soo sleepy and stuffed up and just have that weak and blecky cold feeling.. The worst part is, when I have a cold I eat like a crazy person!! You know the saying feel a cold starve a fever?? Well it's as if my tummy 'knows' it.. Or maybe it's all in my head.. Either way, I just wanna EAT! I have lots of flex left and all of todays points, so I'm gonna eat.. I'm just going to make sure that I don't over eat.. Grrr.. I hope this thing goes away fast!! I've been drinking lots of Neo Citron cuz it makes you feel all fuzzy and comfy.. And it has NO points!! lol!! Hope you're all having a great Sunday!! :-)

Good morning!!

2007-03-17T05:09:00.000-05:00

HAPPY ST. PATRICKS DAY!!!!

So I'm not technically Irish, but any day that give you and excuse to drink beer all day long is cool with me! lol!! I always wished I was Irish though.. So I hope you're all doing something fun today!! I'm still nursing a massive head cold, so no green beer for me!! :-( I have to work today from 7-4, which normally would be an awesome shift, but because I feel like one of the zombies from Night of the Living Dead, I'm not looking forward to it as much.. lol!! Plus, we got a pile of snow last night and it promises to hold out throughout the afternoon.. Bleck! I was all into spring.. Have a great day everyone!! I'd love to hear about any fun plans you have, so I can live vicariously though you!! lol!! I'm off to finish getting ready for work! :-)

Do you KNOW how excited I am???

2007-03-15T20:41:00.000-05:00

There's excited and then there's me!!! SUPER excited crazy woman!! lol!! Okay, I'm sorry about today, that was a lil mean not tell you, but in ALL honesty I was afraid that I would jinx myself.. So I didn't really do it to be mean.. :-( I hope you all still love me!!! So, this morning I weighed in at 227 which is an awesome 2 lb loss.. I came SOOO close to just using that as my weigh in weight for this week.. But I thought, no, I should really wait, just in case.. Well holy crapola!! Am I EVER glad that I did!!! I'm down to 225!! That's a 4 lb loss for this week.. I have NO IDEA how that's even possible.. I did stay completely within plan and had 13 flex left, but I still felt a little like I wasn't making great choices.. I've been faithful with WW for months now and it still continues to surprise me and give me those joyeous "I LOVE WW" moments! lol!! Thanks SO much for talking me through my down periods this week! The way I was feeling this could've easily been a gain instead of a loss, but you kept me encouraged and motivated.. THANK YOU!!! :-)

It's weigh in day!!!

2007-03-15T11:31:00.000-05:00

So it's happy weigh in day for me!!! I'm excited cuz I took a peek this morning.. However, I'm not actually going to weigh in until tonight when I get home from work.. For some reason running around like a crazy chick for 7 or 8 hours gets me at my lowest weight, kinda like it is for people people first thing in the morning.. So I figure 'maybe' I can get a better number, if not I'm pretty happy with the one that I got.. hee hee.. Not telling what it is!! lol!! I suck, I know.. I don't get off work until 9pm, so the people out here in Ontario and East might be in bed by the time I post, but you Westerners might still be up! Either way you'll see by tomorrow!! Keep your fingers crossed for me and send me lotsa loser vibes iffn' you can!! Thank you!!! :-)

I freakin' LOVE you guys!!! :-)

2007-03-13T18:37:00.000-05:00

Seriously, I read your comments before work today (and some last night), and you TOTALLY made my day!! I don't know what you're talking about ME being so supportive!! You are absolutely the most supportive people ever, and I SOOO appreciate it!! I went into work today feeling SO special and so inspired and I wish you were all here so I could squeeze the stuffin's outta you!!! :-) Thank you again!!

I have some new products to report on! lol!! I tried the 3 Mushroom Pasta sauce from Knorr last night.. It was awesome!! I tried to find a picture to post here but wasn't able to.. I used 2 tsp of light margarine (Becel) and 3/4 cup of skim milk with the powder.. And then added 10 large shrimp and had it over some rotini pasta.. I used Healthy Harvest whole wheat/Omega 3 pasta.. It was SO good I was really surprised.. Altogether, because I used 2 cups of the pasta, it was 10 points.. I had a huge salad with it too.. I don't eat much during the day so I tend to have bigger dinners, but for that much food 10 points was pretty good!!

Also, I was able to find some Skinny Cow products yesterday.. YAY!!! I tried one of the vanilla ice cream sammiches last night and it was SO good!! It's actually a good size! I'm so used to everything healthy or low fat being a smaller portion, but this wasn't.. It was awesome, and only 3 points.. In all honesty, I would've paid 4 or 5 points for that baby!! lol!! Now we all have different tastes, so I can't guarantee that you'll like it, heck most of you may have already tried it.. But I was SUPER happy with the product and would absolutely buy this and the Knorr 3 Mushroom sc again..

Frustration..

2007-03-12T16:58:00.000-05:00

I tend to be one of those people who hates discussing negative things.. I hate bringing other people down, or even just the risk of bringing them down.. Stupid, I know.. Like I have 'that' much influence over anyone elses' life.. For me it's always been about having fun all the time, at all costs.. Which is probably why I'm humungo.. So for the last few days I've been avoiding dealing with some frustrations.. I've mentioned them in comments to some of the other bloggers, but never really dealt with why I was feeling frustrated.. So now I am..

I have been pigging out!! Seriously, I've been eating and eating.. I'll be full, and I still eat!! All within my points.. Well, Thursday was my WI and I have 13 flex points left.. The problem is that I'm eating bad things.. Like in one day I'll have 5 WW cakes.. Or for dinner I'll have 17 pt burritos.. So am I following plan, yes, technically.. But not the way I should be.. And I've known it.. I guess this is better than what I'd usually do which is just go off plan altogether.. Still, I'm a scale junkie.. I weigh myself during the week so I can see what needs to be done before WI.. I haven't lost anything yet this week.. And yeah, I'm being a little tough on myself here, but that's how I roll..

So yesterday when I was trying on those jeans and setting new goals, I had a moment where I felt that giving up feeling, like I'll never reach that goal.. And it kinda lite a fire under my ass and made me want to do better.. When I'm at work I'm crazy busy, always on my feet, always running from one place to another.. My best WI weeks are always right after I've had a week with lots of hours at work.. But because I run around so much at work, and because I'm SOO not used to being on my feet for that amount of time each day, I've been neglecting any and all exercise.. When I get home I'm just too tired.. Now our hours have been cut back a little bit, so I'm not working as much, so I'm not seeing the losses I was seeing when I first started.. So I'm feeling frustrated, and eating more.. Stupid girl.. lol!! So today, I pulled my lip back up from the ground and stopped feeling sorry for myself.. I've eaten well all day, did some productive shopping, and even got onto the eliptical for a good 20 minute, 2/km burn.. I've made the commitment to exercise EVERY day off I have.. When I get used to working I'll up it to exercising even on the days I work.. I've also commited to getting my eating back under control..

So this is me fessing up to my human-like feelings, and it's me being accountable for my actions, and the way those actions will be changing..

My New Mini~Goal

2007-03-11T18:33:00.000-05:00

I think it's important for us to set smaller goals for ourselves along our weightloss journey, smaller goals that we can celebrate when we've reached them.. I think it makes the journey itself a little shorter.. Anyway, today when I got home from work I decided that it was time to once again, pull out some old jeans and see how close I am to fitting into them.. I'm still quite a while away from being able to, and I knew that going into it.. About a month ago I tried them on and could barely get them up over my ass.. Well, this time they fit my legs and my butt, but wouldn't even come close to fitting over the spare tire.. lol!! Darn thing, deflate already!!!!!!!!! So these are my new 'mini goal'.. Right now I wear a plus size 22 (stretch). These babies are Old Navy (regular) size 20's.. And they haven't fit me in over 4 years.. The next time you see them, I'll be wearing'em!! Mark my words!! lol!! I'm gonna make'em my bitch!! hee hee.. :-)

Yummy soup!

2007-03-11T10:55:00.000-05:00

So, I tried one of the Spring Vegetable Cup-a-Soup's for lunch today.. I was suprised by how good it was!! Because I don't eat meat (only fish) it's hard to find a vegetable soup that I really like that has noodles and is made without beef broth.. I hate the big chunks of veggies that you find in ministrone and other soups in a can.. I tend to stick to low fat cream of mushroom and low fat cream of broccoli.. But for 2 and 3 points a cup, they can be high depending on the type of day I'm having.. This lil gem was only 1 point for a cup!! I was thrilled, and I love the lil noodles in it! Now I just have to find some low points crackers to go in it.. lol!! And this was my first time posting a picture of food, so I'm pretty impressed with myself right now.. lol!! Okay, off to eat my soup and then to work!!

Some funnies..

2007-03-08T18:31:00.000-05:00

~ Inside every older person is a younger person wondering what the hell happened.. Cora Harvey Armstrong

~ If you can't be a good example then you'll just have to be a horrible warning.. Catherine

~ I'm not going to vaccum til' Sears makes one you can ride on.. Roseanne Bar

~ Behind every successful man is a surprised woman.. Maryon Pearson

~ When life hands you lemons ask for tequila and salt

And my personal favorite:

~ Inside me lives a skinny woman crying to get out. But I can usually shut the bitch up with cookies..

lol!! Now that last one was my favorite cuz it was just hilarious and SOOOO what I used to be about!! I think we've all been there!!

International Womens Day!!!

2007-03-08T17:08:00.000-05:00

Since today is International Womens Day, I thought I'd start my post by thanking my wonderful women blogger friends, who EVERYDAY touch my heart and inspire me to do great things.. I have no idea what I would do without you wonderful women, I feel like I owe so much of where I am now and the distance I've come to your support and kindness.. So thank you SO much!!

Okay, so that made me a lil weepy.. I'm such an emotional person, especially when something means a lot to me.. I'm also really, really tired.. I got a little over 4 hours sleep last night and had to be at work for 8am this morning.. I was in bed early, but wasn't able to get to sleep for about 3 hours.. I have a feeling I'll be crawling into bed early tonight.. lol!!

Work was good today.. I'm SO happy to be able to say that as it's been incredibly stressful lately.. I work in Customer Service and the Photo Lab.. We're constantly running back and forth between the two so I get lots of exercise, but I also have to hear lots of bitching and moaning.. Now, in some cases I really do feel badly for the person if it was a big mistake that was made.. But in most cases it's something trivial and they end up being mistaken because they've read thier receipt wrong.. I just smile and apologize for other peoples' mistakes.. It's hard sometimes.. Anyway, rant over, work was good today.. lol!!

And I had my WI, I'm down another pound this week.. Is it awful that I was hoping for more?? I think because I had such a good week last week that I'm a little spoiled.. But then part of me was also dreading it because I was afraid I'd be up.. So I'm gonna take that 1 lb and be happy with it! It's a pound in the right direction and the best part is that I'm now in the 220's!! YAY!!!! I'm pretty psyched about that!! And having these losses makes me want to be even better this week!!

SOOO Excited!!!

2007-03-06T14:00:00.000-05:00

So I 'just' booked my appointment for my 30th birthday tattoo!! You've already seen it, it's a couple of posts down, the Luna Moth.. I'm going to get it on my upper arm/shoulder.. I'm SOO excited!! Tattoo's are most definitly addictive, but because I'm so picky about what I get I generally take years in between getting them.. I have two already, this will be my third.. And I have another one that I'm waiting to get at goal.. She's a beautiful fairy.. I LOVE tattoos!!!!

And I just booked my train ticket to Kingston!! SOOO excited!! I love my city, and I miss it SOO much!! I was raised where I live now, in Renfrew (Ottawa Valley), but I moved to Ktown and lived there for 7 years.. I've been back in Renfrew now for almost 3, and I miss Kingston all the time.. Not to mention one of my bestfriends who still lives there.. It's been 5 months since I've been back, so I'm so excited.. It's such a beautiful city.. Part of me is still there, I think.. Sometimes I think about moving back, but I like being close to my family.. I'm torn!! lol!! As soon as my train gets into Kingston I'm going to see my hair lady, she's fabulous!! She'll make my hair look like a Pantene Commercial.. I LOVE her.. Then the next day I go for my tattoo!! I'll make sure to post pictures of both after I get home!! How will I be able to wait another month?? lol

I just hope I can loose a few more pounds before I go, that would be the one thing that would make my bday weekend away even more special!!

Ever Have Those Days??

2007-03-05T19:14:00.000-05:00

When you WISH with all your heart that you could just press fast forward and have the weight fall off you?? Seriously, I wish I could speed this process up.. You're probably thinking 'uhmm, yeah Jen, try everyday' and you're right, if I really thought about it I'm sure everyday I would wish to be at my goal weight.. But most days I find myself just happy to be commited to this journey, and happy to be feeling healthier.. Because in all honesty, by doing this day by day process we're not just loosing weight we're gaining other positive things.. The ablility and the strength, not to mention the patience, to really work for something that we want.. That must develop some kind of good juju for us right?? If you don't know what juju is, it's kinda like karma, but not so much in the 'do unto others' way.. Anyway, most days I'm temporarily satisfied with my progress, at least these days.. But today, ALL day I just really wanted to be at that end place.. I felt fat and frumpy all day! It didn't necesarily bring me down or anything, it just made me wish I worked by remote and could press fast forward..

My Celebrity Look-alikes

2007-03-04T23:14:00.001-05:00

http://www.myheritage.com

Finally did the celebrity look a like thing that Amanda did.. Yeah, I'm a copycat.. lol!! It was lotsa fun!! I only did it the one time, but if I get other face pictures I think I'd try it again, just for fun.. :-)

My Saturday

2007-03-03T11:55:00.000-05:00

Feeling ickey again today.. I woke up and my damn throat was sore again!! lol! It's taking a while to kick this thing.. I was totally feeling better a couple days ago.. I think maybe it's because I've been working so much.. But, I have this weekend off so hopefully I'll be feeling better by Monday! :-) Did I mention that I'm also wanting to eat everything in sight?? It's awful!! Luckily I still have all my flex, but I'm kinda trying to hold onto them since my WI day isn't until Thursday so they have to last me.. But then I think about how many of them I actually use during the week, which is none.. So I think I might dig into them today, it's what they're there for right??

I posted the pretty moth because it's the next tattoo I'm thinking about getting.. It's funny because everyone always thinks that butterflys are the pretty ones and that moths are ugly.. I think it'd be cool to have this on my arm and someone will say, ohh, what a pretty butterfly and I can say, actually (in my smart voice, lol!), it's a Luna Moth.. hee hee.. Yeah, sometimes I wonder what's going on in my brian.. Anyway, it's beautiful and feminine and I think it'd make a great tattoo!! I'm hoping to get it done when I'm in Kingston for my birthday.. I have a gift certificate for my fav tattoo parlour down there.. The way I'm talking you'd think I'm a tattoo' Momma, but I only have two.. I'm just really picky and like to think it through completely before I get one.. Cuz it's permanant right? And I've heard that removing them is WAY more painful than getting one..

Okay, gonna go stuff my face with somethin'! lol!! Hope everyone is having a great weekend!! :-)

Yay!!

2007-03-01T20:01:00.000-05:00

So my WI went well!! It did turn out to be 230 lbs, which is down 3.. I'm pretty excited as 3 is a fairly good jump down.. Secretly though, I was kinda hoping that I'd be down to 129 today.. lol!! Serves me right for getting on the scale before it was time!! So yeah, I'm pretty excited and happy and I hope that I can keep it up!! I'm almost into the 220's!! Wow!! Yeah, you guys know, I love Weight Watchers.. lol!!

I just found out tonight that I have a new lil nephew!! His name is Jake and he's white and wriggly and puppyish, and I love him already!! My bestfriend finally got the dog she's been wanting for SOOO long! And I swear, I'm as excited for her as I am for my other friend who's having a human baby.. I can't WAIT to meet him and spoil him and give him kisses!! lol!!

I'm going to go treat myself with a frozen pizza for supper and some Survivor on the tv.. Thanks SOO much for your encouragement and for sharing my excitement over the loss.. Have I mentioned that you guys are the best bunch of supporters a girl could have?? Thank you!!! ~ xo

Starting to feel better..

2007-02-28T17:00:00.000-05:00

So I had yesterday off of work, and spent the day sipping Neo Citron and watching movies.. I think it made a difference because I felt much better this morning.. My chest/throat isn't as sore, and actually right now it's barely bugging me at all!! I had more energy and everything.. So I went into work early today because I have four orders of slides to do.. We scan every one of them and then write them all onto CD's so that people can preserve those memories.. It isn't difficult but it's extremely time consuming.. So I go in early, finished one order and did another one, and around 3pm I start sneezing and feeling congested.. And of coarse this is after I volunteer to work for my boss tomorrow so she can have the day off (she's sick too), so I HOPE that customers take it easy on me tomorrow and that I can get the rest of my slide orders finished.. Normally there would be two of us on for at least 1/2 of the day, but with her sick I'll be all by my lonesome for 9 hours.. So keep your fingers crossed for me please!! lol!! I'm going to have a Neo Citron here in a little bit and try to be in bed by 10pm.. But there's SO much good tv on tonight!! So I'm going to watch Lost, America's Next Top Model and tape Criminal Minds.. That way I'll just be missing Medium.. Grrr.. lol!

Good news, I weighed myself when I got home from work and the scale was down to 230!! Yay!! That means that I could be down 3lbs for this week, if it holds until tomorrow.. That would be awesome!! I just can't believe it!! :-) Have I mentioned how much I love Weight Watchers?? No?? I LOVE WEIGHT WATCHERS!!! lol!! I know that it's also due in part to my job, because I'm so active when I'm working.. That's really what's making the difference.. So let me see here, because of work I loose weight faster AND I make money!! Bring on the work!! lol!!

It's Oscar day!! :-)

2007-02-25T08:26:00.000-05:00

I love awards shows!! Well not so much the music ones because it seems to be centered mostly around music I don't listen too, like rap and dance .. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy some of the songs, but I'm a rocker, I like the hard stuff.. I've been waiting for the Oscars for over a month now.. I love them.. And I love the red carpet.. To see what designers everyone is wearing and what jewelry and how they did their hair.. lol!! I love it all!! So I'm psyched..

Not feeling the greatest though.. I've had a really sore throat for two days, this will be my 3rd day.. It seems to be getting worse each day, but I'm hoping it'll start feeling better after today.. I've had to work all w/e and it's SO dry in there that I don't think it's helping me much.. I feel great though, besides the sore throat.. I'm hoping for a great WI this week!! I just realized that it's almost March already!! Summer's coming!! Time to buckle down and loose some poundage!! lol!! Have a great Sunday!! :-)

Funny joke for a sunny Friday :-) (bad language)

2007-02-23T10:46:00.000-05:00

An Octopus walks into a bar and says "I can play any musical instrument you like".

An Englishman gives it a guitar which it plays better than Hendrix.

An Irishman gives it a piano which it plays better than Elton John.

A Scotsman throws it a set of bagpipes. The octopus fumbles about for a couple of minutes without a sound from the bagpipes and the Scotsman asks, "whats wrong wit ya, can ye not play it"?

The octopus says, "Play It? I'm gonna fuck her brains out once I get her pyjamas off."

Good WI! :-)

2007-02-22T17:34:00.000-05:00

So I did my WI a lil while ago, after work and I was back down to 233! Which means that I was able to loose what I put on in a week and a half in only a week!! And that's with one off points day and a small veggie pizza!! I'm thinking it's cuz of working and being on my feet all the time.. I'm PSYCHED! I like to get back to where I was as soon as I can, because now next week if I have a loss it'll actually be a loss rather than a re-loss if that makes sense.. I'm sorry, I'm exhausted! Two long days at work and no day off til Tuesday.. I'm not really complaining though, cuz I love my job! And I LOVE the activity it gives me! I'm almost addicted to it.. Normally I'd think that was kinda bad, but then people get addicted to exercising for the same reason I'm sure.. I'm still not at the point where I can exercise though.. My feet are just too sore from carrying around all this weight, but I think I'll know when I get to the point where I can start working out again.. Yay me!!! I'm having one of those VERY rare, 'me loving' days.. lol! And I'm excited for Thursday night tv!! I never really know how to end these posts so I'm just gonna do this: THE END.. lol! :-)

Boring day..

2007-02-20T23:48:00.000-05:00

Nothing exciting happened today.. Found a couple of new yummy things to eat.. Well, jello isn't exactly new, but I happened to have a couple of sugar free jello packages in the cupboard and we had some light Cool Whip in the fridge.. What a yummy treat!! And filling too, I was surprised.. And all for 1 lil itty bitty point! :-) Got some new yummy food from M&M Meats.. I got the single serving scalloped potatoes, 8 pts/serving, high but not too bad if I'm having it with some low point fish.. I also got some sole parmesan that I'm looking forward to trying.. I figure these quick and easy meals will come in handy after a long work day..

I work from 12-9pm tomorrow, 9 hours.. Not a huge deal but because I'm on my feet the entire time, I'm bound to be exhausted by tomorrow night.. Then it's home to eat and then right to bed because I have to be up at 6am to open the next day.. Grr.. I'm hoping I'll get Sunday off..

So I switched my weigh in day to Thursday.. I find that my best time to weigh in is after a long day at work and Thursdays I always work at least 8 hours.. Not sure how I'll do with the flex points since I tend to use most of them on weekends, but then that leaves me very few for during the week.. We'll see..

Yep, so this post is as boring as my day!! lol!! I'm going to bed! Nighty, night blogland! ~xo

I NEVER change my clothes! Seriously!!

2007-02-19T23:35:00.000-05:00

lol!! So I just realized that in EVERY picture in my blog (okay except for one), I'm wearing the same shirt! People are gonna think I'm some big stinky girl who goes around wearing the same damn shirt everyday!! lol! And the funniest part is that out of all my shirts, I wear that one the least! So, I'm making a mental note right now that next time I'm near a camera I'll be wearing something different! lol!!! :-)

2007-02-19T22:55:00.000-05:00

I was just looking through the pics I have on my computer and found this one.. Thought it was funny.. This is what happens when me and my friend Jose Cuervo get together.. lol!!

changed my blog

2007-02-18T17:34:00.000-05:00

Hey, guys!! I hope you approve of my blog changes.. I liked it before but it just wasn't 'pretty' enough for me.. lol!! I thought about changing to another type of blogging, but I like blogger.com, and was able to find a new template that I could work with.. I also FINALLY figured out how to add links, so I added you.. If there's someone I've forgotten or someone who would like me to add them please leave me a comment.. As for the bloggers that are on my list, I'm so happy to have you there as it will help me keep up with all of your blogs! I look forward to reading them more regularly.. I'm hoping to have some new pics to post soon!

My Lily

2007-02-15T20:11:00.000-05:00

This is my Lily.. I figured I posted a pic of my dog, I should post one of my kitten.. You know how kids are, you have to keep it fair! lol!

Totally screwed up!! :-(

2007-02-14T10:42:00.000-05:00

But I'm not going to pout about it too much, because I made the decision to be bad everytime I put something bad in my mouth.. I don't know what happened! I was fine, going strong, doing well.. Then it was my bf's birthday and I was even okay that night, making pretty good choices.. But then she got really sick with bacterial pnemonia and everyone around her got it.. I got sick, but it was more just my body fighting it, so I wasn't full blown sick.. Well, I just didn't 'feel' like counting points or measuring things.. I think that's where it got out of hand.. Then last week I decided that I'd already been bad for one week, what's another?? Duh.. So now it's been about a week and half of badness, but I'm back.. And I'm trying not to kick myself for the last week, instead I'm trying to use it, I'm just not sure for what yet.. lol! It's funny, I'm looking forward to having that 'good' feeling again, the feeling you get when you're exercising and making good choices, but am not really excited about being OP's again.. I think it's because I'm doubting my ability to actually do it.. So, I'm just gonna do it and not think about it.. More than anything I missed you guys!! And the GDT!! So I am excited to be back in some ways!! lol!! Thanks for your messages while I was away.. Kathryn, as always you ROCK! You're part of the reason I'm back OP's so thank you! And happy Valentines Day to everyone! ~xo

Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-)

2007-01-30T19:07:00.000-05:00

Had my WI today!! And I'm down 3, yes ladies and gentlemen I said 3, fricken' pounds!! I'm SOOO happy right now! That's 5 lbs in the last two weeks!! I'm figuring I'll stay the same or have a little gain next week, but that's okay! As long as I have the odd good WI I'll be a happy camper!! :-) Last night was Belly Dancing.. It was about the middle of class and we were practicing our front and back (they have a fancier name), figure 8's and my teacher starts coming over!! I'm WAY at the back of the class, so all these thoughts start flying through my head.. "Is she coming over here?", "nooo she'll go the other way", "wait a second she IS coming over here!", "maybe she's coming to talk to the girl beside me", "OH NO she's coming to talk to me!", "what am I doing wrong???" lol! It was like high school all over again!! But it was all good.. She came over to me and whispered quietly about how beautiful my figure 8 was! And she said, "seriously, I noticed it all the way across the room, beautiful job." I was stoked!! Now, this was only my 3rd belly dancing class, so I'm still at the point where NOTHING feels right to me.. I do what she says and follow her movements and HOPE that I'm doing it right.. So her feedback was SO confidence building for me!! She's a great teacher! LOVE bellydancing!! :-)

First Pay!!

2007-01-26T11:59:00.000-05:00

So I got my first check yesterday! It felt awesome!! And guess what I got?? ~pause for dramatic effect~ I gots me a new camera!!! lol!! It's pretty and it's pink and I LOVE it!! So hopefully soon I'll figure out how to use it and get up some new pics!! I actually wanted to take a picture of my camera to post in here, but I'm still trying to figure out how to go about that.. lol!! I'm hoping that I'll keep having losses with WW, and that I'll have lots to take pics of.. :-) And thanks everyone who left comments about my WI! Wheebs, Amanda and Kathryn, you girls ROCK!! :-)

Awesome WI!!

2007-01-23T22:49:00.000-05:00

So I got on the scale this morning and I was down 2 lbs!! Yay!! I'm SOOO psyched!! I've been fighting to get below 238 for a while now, but because of Christmas and TOM it hasn't happened.. But now I am officially 236, which means that I've also lost a total of 21 lbs.. Just a start, but I have to celebrate each victory, big or small!!

Got my first Belly Dancing skirt/scarf, thingy!!

2007-01-23T01:07:00.000-05:00

Yeah, so I'm not exactly sure what it's called!! lol!! I just know that it's lavender coloured and pretty.. It's got the lil gold coins along the V at the back and along the top that folds over a little on my hips.. It does a really nice job accentuating my 'spare tire', lol! Seriously though, I love it, and I love making it jingle!! Someday I'll have to take a pic of it and post it so everyone can see!! I'm a total glutton for pretty things!! lol!! WI is tomorrow!! Keeping my fingers crossed that I'll actually have a loss!! :-) Okay, off to bed for me, I'm SOO sleepy, and I have a long night at work tomorrow.. xo

To my faithful readers..

2007-01-21T22:25:00.000-05:00

I'm beginning to bore even myself.. Because of this I've decided not to post everyday, cuz my life just isn't THAT interesting.. lol!! When I have something to say that isn't a snorefest, or a new pic to put up I'll post.. Thanks!~xo

2007-01-17T22:44:00.000-05:00

This is a picture of my baby puppy, and her lil ducky.. I just had to put it on here cuz she's SOOO darn tootin' cute!!!

Nothing Exciting Today

2007-01-17T17:22:00.000-05:00

So, today was my 2nd day at work.. I'm still really enjoying it.. I don't eat much when I'm there and am on my feet all the time, so I'm hoping I'll start to see some weight come off a bit quicker than it has been.. I certainly feel lighter!! lol!! That's all for today..

My First Day

2007-01-16T18:21:00.000-05:00

So my first day was awesome! It went really well and I really enjoyed it.. I feel like I'm learning things quickly and should have most of it down in no time!! :-) I took the Points Test again at WW to see if my daily points allowance would chance with the new activity level.. Sure enough, I went from 28 points to 31 points.. I think I'll only eat the 31 points on the days I work a lot of hours, like today, and eat 28 points on my days off.. I was on my feet for 7 hours straight today!! And I had been planning on exercising but my feet are just too sore.. I did buy a new pair of expensive running shoes (black of coarse) to wear, hoping that they'd help my feet a little bit.. I know I just need to get used to being on my feet for that length of time again, but at this weight it'll probably take a little bit.. Honestly, I just know that now that I'm more active I'm going to see a difference in the scale and I CANNOT WAIT!! lol!! OHH, I almost forgot!! Today was my weigh in, and I lost 3 lbs, which I'm SOO Happy about!! It's all downhill from here!! Yay mee!! lol!! Well I'm back in for another long shift tomorrow 8-4.. I can't wait til I get my first check!! :-)

GOT THE JOB!!!!! :-)

2007-01-15T13:03:00.000-05:00

I just heard back and I start training tomorrow morning for the Cust. Service/Photo lab!!! Yay!!! I start at 9 am which I'm a lil worried about cuz I have a hard time getting to bed early sometimes.. I'll have to start a new routine!! I'm SO excited!! I already know what I'm going to wear and everything!! They do have uniforms, and I think we have to tuck the shirts in, so that'll be extra incentive to loose weight.. As for WW I'm feeling pretty positive.. I just wish that not every party or event had to revolve around food.. I feel like all of my hard work has been for naught and I'm sick of having to be around people and they're yummy food.. I'm starting to resent it all, I think.. Mostly I think that I'm mad at myself for not being able to say no to things.. At my friends birthday I was happy with what I ate, I stayed OP, and they were MY choices.. But there are times when you just don't have a choice and that kinda burns my ass.. And now I have to deal with working and eating at work.. Like tomorrow, do I bring food?? Grrr.. So I'll have some adjustments to make.. And I'm going to start avoiding the places and events that have food that I don't want to eat.. It's worth it to me to avoid those situations.. I've quit a lot of bad habits over the years, but this food thing has got to be one of the most frustrating.. When you quit smoking do you have someone waving a cigarette in your face?? Usually not.. Okay, rant done!! lol! I'm going to workout! :-)

Had a great weekend!!

2007-01-14T12:49:00.000-05:00

Friday night was my Moms retirement party.. We went out to a lovely little restaurant for dinner.. I had the Maple Chipolte Salmon and OMG, it just melted in my mouth! It's been a long time since I've ate food that was like a party in my mouth.. lol!! It was so much fun! And she enjoyed herself so much.. Then last night I had a slumber party with my two bestfriends.. It was one of their 30th birthdays and because she's also 4 months pregnant we decided to have an old fashioned sleepover.. We ate great food, pizza for me, had amazing raspberry cheesecake, played Trivial Pursuit and watched a couple of movies.. Then we all fell asleep in my living room around 2 am.. It was great!! And eye opening for me.. I always think you need to drink to have that much fun, but we had more fun than I've had in a long time! I managed to stay completely OP's the entire weekend, and I tracked everything!! I even still have 4 flex left for tonight if I want them.. My weigh in is on Tuesday though, so I'll need to start being a little more careful, and I REALLY need to get my water into me! I only drank 1.5 L yesterday AND I was hungover.. lol!! Here's to lazy, hazy days, good food and AMAZING friends!!

Yay!!!

2007-01-12T14:58:00.000-05:00

I'm having a GREAT day today!!! I had a job interview this afternoon that went very well.. I don't know if I'll get it, but I know that I represented myself extremely well, and I know they liked me.. I was applying for a position in the Cosmetics Dept. but because there's a lot of squatting and kneeling, things I can't do with my leg, they said I might be better as a cashier, which would be okay.. But then as they got to know me they said that I had a calming way with people, and that I was very personable and said I might do very well in the Customer Service/Photo lab dept.. So I'm really hoping for the Customer serv. job.. But really I'd be happy to get any job! Once these lbs come off I'm going to want to buy lots and lots of clothes!! Speaking of lbs, it's not my weigh in day, but I hopped on the scale anyway and I'm down 3 lbs!! Which means that I've officially lost everything I gained over Christmas, and I'm not sick anymore!! DOUBLE YAY!!! Now, if I can stay OP's this weekend I should have a loss on Tuesday.. I have my Moms retirement dinner tonight, which I'm a little worried about.. They picked the menu, but I've been assured that there will be healthier choices available.. And tomorrow night is my bestfriends birthday.. I'm treating myself to pizza, which I can eat and still be OP and not use flex either.. But we're having Cheesecake.. The jury is still out on whether I'll have any of that.. lol!! So I'm finally back in the position to loose some major weight, and I'm so excited!! It just goes to show that if you stick it out, no matter what, that you WILL see results!! :-)

A New Day

2007-01-11T12:30:00.000-05:00

So today is a new day, and I'm still feeling kinda down.. I know it's my hormones going crazy, but ya can't help the way you feel!!! So I think I figured out the problem with my pictures, it only wants to post my FAT pictures!!! Grrr!! I have a couple pre-accident pics I really wanted to post, but nooo.. lol!! So I'm going to post them.. I'm just still a little annoyed that I can't figure out how to have a place 'just' for pictures.. My WW goals for today are to stay OP the whole day, drink my 3L and just try to be positive and keep my chin up.. Tomorrow is my interview, and I'm still worried, but I think I'll do okay!! I talked to my girls last night and they helped a lot.. Okay, sorry for the super boring post!! lol!!

Arrgghhhh, blogging is frustrating!!!

2007-01-10T22:13:00.000-05:00

So, today was quite the day!! I got a phone call about a job interview on Friday that I'm totally stressed about!! It's been years since I've been to a job interview!! Augh.. It's for a position at the cosmetics counter at a grocery store.. I'm a girly girl, so I think I'd be good at it.. Then, the technician from Dell came and fixed my computer for me.. YAY!! So I have all my pics uploaded onto my computer, but of coarse, for some reason my blog won't upload them!! Well, it uploaded one of my fat pics, that I do want on here, but not right on the first page.. What I would like is to have a link to pictures and then have a page with all of them, but I can't figure out how to do it!!! So yes, I'm frustrated, and if I could kick this blog without hurting my computer I'd totally be doing it!! lol!
On a WW note, today was frustrating.. I know that those 3 lbs were beyond my control, but I'm still feeling like I'm getting no where.. There are all these yummy chocolate things in the other room, cookies, truffles, chocolate bars, all kinds of yummy stuff.. And the little devil on my shoulder is saying, go ahead, you're not getting anywhere anyway.. SOOO frustrating!! Obviously I'm trying to ignore it.. I've been OP all day, I've almost gotten my 3L drank, and I worked out and earned 7 AP's today, so I'm trying!! Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!!

Well I was right!

2007-01-09T15:47:00.000-05:00

I was up today!! 3lbs.. I'm a little angry just that TOM couldn't have come 'after' my weigh in, but I know that next weeks' weigh in will make up for it.. I'm just more impressed with myself for staying on points.. I haven't seen a loss for about a month now because of TOM, Christmas (took too much time off points), and now TOM again, and I'm still on program.. That's amazing to me! Normally when discouraged I would just say screw it and eat whatever I wanted, and I'm not doing that, in fact it hasn't even been a question for me! It just took this bad WI for me to realize how commited I am to WW. So even though I'm disappointed, I'm also really proud of myself and that's what will motivate me for the next week.

2007-01-08T23:54:00.000-05:00

Worried about WI tomorrow

2007-01-08T23:38:00.000-05:00

So, I'm having an endo (endometriosis) flare up.. Grrrr.. When I get sick it's like everything swells! Already I've put on two lbs since it started.. I'm SO mad!! Last time I was sick I actually put on 10 lbs, just from everything my body goes through.. Basically I take birth control pills to control it, but I'd forgotten to take them for a while, and ended up getting sick last month.. I've been taking them religiously since I screwed them up, but because they're so low dosage I guess I'm having a little backlash.. Anyway, I know I'll be in the clear next month, and after that as long as I keep remembering to take my pills.. But, my weigh in is tomorrow, so I'm thinking I'm going to be WAY up this week which is SOOO frustrating because I've been so good.. I'm trying to think of it in a positive light, like even if I'm up it'll just mean a bigger loss next week, but I know it's not going to help tomorrow when I step on and see that gain..

Oh a lighter/happier note, I had my very first belly dancing class tonight!! Although it was a great time I have to say first that I fell in the mud on the way in.. lol!! So I ended up walking into the class with mud from head to toe.. Ahh, well, everyone falls right?? So anyway, the class was AWESOME!! I had SO much fun! We started off just learning some different basic moves and practised them for a while.. Then we actually learned the first little part of the dance routine will be learning.. And we were sent home with the music and steps so we can practice on our own. I really want one of the belly dancing skirts they have.. There are so many different colours, and they're only $50, but right now that's a lot for me, so I'm gonna have to wait for a little bit, I think.. I cannot wait until next Monday!! I wish belly dancing classes could be everyday!! lol! :-)

Sooooo sleepy!!!!

2007-01-07T23:49:00.000-05:00

I so want to just move on to bed but I thought, this is my first day with my new blog, I should say something!! lol!! Don't have much to say though!!! I had a wonderful day, and stayed completely On Points the entire day!! Come to think of it, I've been really really good all week! I hope the scale is good to me on Tuesday (weigh in day)! I spent most of my day cleaning, which lead to more cleaning.. Lotsa fun!! And very good for Activity points!! :-) Tomorrow is my first day of belly dancing classes, I can't wait!! I hope that I don't suck too badly! Well, I think it's time for bed.. From now on I'll try to post earlier in the day! Thanks to the people who have left comments! I get SO excited everytime I see a new one!! lol!! And thanks to all my girls at the GDT! I love all of you SOO much!! Totally couldn't be doing this without you!! And definitly wouldn't have this blog without you!! You rock!! :-)

2007-01-06T19:29:00.000-05:00

This is the only photo I have available right now.. I'm having such a hard time getting the ones I scanned onto my computer (long story). Anyway, this is me after a day in the sun with margaritas. It was my bestfriends bachelorette party, lots of fun was had!! Pic was taken in July/06

My first post!!!

2007-01-06T18:37:00.000-05:00

Hey, people!! So my blog is starting to come together!! I can't get my pics loaded but I'm working on it! Actually, I haven't given my blog addy out yet so really, no one's going to read this until I do.. I just wanted to have some kinda post on my screen!! lol!! Can't wait to get this finished, this blogging is hard work!! I wonder if I get any AP's for it? lol!! Hee hee..