A Very Sad Valentines Day

I had planned to post a very cheery Valentines post to everyone in blog land.. Sure, I'm single, but any excuse to celebrate is always a good thing in my opinion.. So I get up this morning and my Mom tells me that Nicole Howard has died.. She's the daughter of a fellow member of our church.. I of coarse was heart broken for him, and his family.. He's a wonderful man and I really felt for him and regreted his loss.. My mom wanted me to sign into my Facebook account so she could see a picture of Nicole, to see if she recognized her.. She's a Deacon in our church and thought Nicole may have visited us some Sunday in the past.. So there I am signing into my Facebook, and on my home page is a group started in Nicole's memory.. I click on the page and up comes the beautiful face of one of my coworkers.. A girl who I often would stop to chat with and whom only two days before had been grinning and waving at me as she passed by my department.. I felt like someone had kicked me in the stomach.. How can this beautiful young life be over so quickly?? She had been going down the stairs to her basement.. She must've stepped wrong because she fell, something that has happened to all of us at some point in our lives.. Only for her, it would be a fatal fall.. Her life over, just like that.. I can't help but wonder what must've gone through her head as it happened, which is something we should never wonder.. So instead I'm going to remember that beautiful smile and cheery spirit.. Farewell, Nicole, we'll miss you!

I'm sad!! :-)

So, I just found out that this boy I had/have a major crush on has a girlfriend!!! Stinky boy!!!! Bahhhh.. Now, he could just be a really nice person, but I could've swore there was a little chemistry there.. So yeah, not a HUGE deal, just disappointing.. It's fun to have a crush and to get excited about someone, and I feel kinda let down.. I still see him everyday at work, and I'm still nice and stuff, but I'm not going to be *as* nice.. lol!! Boys suck!!!! He's so dreamy too, he's got dark skin and hair, and these bright blue eyes.. (I'm seriously sighing here, just thinking about him.. Grrr..).. Anyway, that's why I'm sad..

On a brighter note my WI was today and I was down 2 pounds.. I really wasn't expecting a loss this week, so I was pleasently surprised..

I have the day off tomorrow, so I'll spend some time catching up on your blogs!! Hope everyone is having a great week so far! :-)

I Won!!

So, a few weeks ago at work, the stores' manager asked me if I would be willing to be a nominee for the health and safety board.. The voting was to take place over a 3 week period.. I had secretly been thinking about the postition, but didn't say anything, so I accepted right away.. I was really flattered, but didn't expect to win.. I was up against 3 other store employees' all of whom had been there at least twice as long as me.. So yesterday I'm at work and I get a call from the owner of the store telling me that I'd won!! I'm so pleased!! So I'm now a member of the Health and Safety board.. Yay!! lol!! I don't plan on staying at my job forever, but I do plan to do the best job I can while I'm there.. Also, I figure something like this, along with being in customer service will look great on a resume someday..

Today is a much needed day off for me.. I plan on staying in my PJ's the majority of the day, and I'm thinking about getting into some Buffy here in a little while.. lol!! We're supposed to get up to 10 cm of snow today, so it's a good day to be snuggly and warm inside.. Hope everyone is having a great Thursday!! :-)

BOOOO-YAHHH!!!

I am SOOO frickin' stoked!!! I'm exhausted and had a super long day at work, but I HAD to come and post this! I was down 4 lbs again this week!! I am rockin' it!!! Well, for now anyway.. lol!! This WI makes it a month that I've been back OP, and in that month I haven't gone over in points even once.. I'm super proud of myself, I've never done this well on the program before.. I know it isn't bound to last forever, there are always hard weeks and I'm ready for them!! Now I'm off to pig out on Hot and Sour Soup.. ((happy dancin'))

Auughh..

Sorry I've been so quiet lately.. Work's been killing me!!! I get home and I'm just too tired to even think about what to write.. Okay, so being on your feet for 9 hours a day on a concrete-type floor is gonna be a killer for anyone.. But I'm carrying two freaking people here!! And no one at work seems to understand that.. Mind you, I doubt any of them have ever been fat.. I get home and I literally cannot walk.. Well, I can, it just takes me a good couple of minutes of moving incredibly slow before I can walk normally.. Most people would probably quit, save themeselves the pain, and the embarassement of knowing why that pain is there.. Not me.. Even though I'm frustrated beyond belief with my job, I refuse to leave it.. Why?? Because I spend the majority of most days on my feet and moving around.. Eventually I'd love a desk job, or even something a little less hectic, but for now working my sometimes crappy job is condusive to my weight loss.. Long story short, I'm sorry I don't post more, and I'm sorry I don't follow your blogs as closely as I'd like to.. But just cuz I'm not here everyday, doesn't mean I'm not kicking ass, or thinking about how you're doing.. Thank you to the people who keep checking in on my erratic blogging!!! lol!! love and hugs!!! xoxo

Another Day, Another Weigh In..

I am extremely pleased to announce that I had another good weigh in this week.. Actually, I'm thrilled to say is probably more accurate.. hehe.. I was down 4 lbs this week!!!! Goooooo meeeee!!! :-) I know it only adds up to being 7 lbs altogther, but screw that!! I'm friggin' stoked!! lol!!

I have tommorrow and Thursday off work.. I am SO excited! I'll have lots of time to blog, and to just relax.. I do have a meeting tomorrow afternoon though, so I think I'm going to head in early and do some grocery shopping.. The kind where you actually stop and take the time to look at new things, (Sarah's shopping trip from the other day inspired me.. Thanks!!).. I'm excited to see if I can find some fun new things..

I'm a horror movie fanatic.. Zombies are my personal favorite.. I even have these crazy dreams where it's like Dawn of the Dead, and Zombies are taking over the world (or at least my world).. The craziest thing about these dreams?? I LOVE them!! lol!! It's like the best kind of horror movie in the world, up close and really, could it get anymore personal?? Love it.. So I bought The Invasion today at work.. It's with Nicole Kidman and Daniel Craig.. It's more about aliens I think, than Zombies, but whatevs', if there's a chance it'll scare me, I'm into it.. Anyway, I hope it's good! I never saw the original so at least I don't know what happens..

Can't WAIT for the Biggest Loser tonight!! I find it so inspiring.. I went on to EBay the other day to see if I could buy previous seasons because I find watching it really helps me.. They had EVERY Biggest Loser workout under the sun, but no seasons of the show.. What's up with that crap?? Grrr... Anyway, I'm totally cheering for the blue couple, the ones who just met before the show.. I can actually see them hooking up afterwards! lol!! GOO Blue!!! :-)

Chinese Food

During my previous 'attempts' to loose weight on the Weight Watchers program, I never ate Chinese food.. I always figured that it would be WAY too high in points for me unless I used all my points, and I usually saved that pleasure for pizza.. Recently a friend and I got together for her birthday lunch and she wanted Chinese food.. I saved all my flex points, and the majority of my daily points for this meal, thinking it would be stupendous.. As I was eating I kept an eye on my serving sizes so I could check the points out later at home.. I was SHOCKED to see that my entire 'splurge meal' come to a whopping 14 points!! Okay, for some of you who are eating a lower amount of points per day due to their KICKASS weightloss, 14 may seem like a lot.. I get to eat 33 points a day, so this was a normal meal for me, well, close to one anyway. I was amazed! Then last night, I decided to have it again, I had lots of flex and daily points left for it.. I pigged out!! I got the hot and sour soup (this one shocked me the most!! 1 cup = 2 pts!!!), I got chinese noodles, singapore style with nothing but the noodles (3/4 c = 3pts), steamed rice (1/2 c = 2pts), chinese veggies with seafood (1 c = 4pts) and a veggie spring roll (3pts).. Is this not insane?? Okay, so the best part?? I woke up this morning and stepped on the scale, just to check out the damage (I have a couple of days left before weigh in), and I was down!!! I'm gonna eat Chinese ALL the time!!!! :-)

Another WI day!

Just down 1 lb this week.. Not as much as I would've liked, but any step down the scale is a step in the right direction, right?? For dinner tonight I'm treating myself to one of my higher-point meals, my burritos.. I LOVE them.. I've cut out the guacamole though.. It's not too bad in small quantities, point wise, but I don't really have any points to spare with this meal.. So guac is a very, very special treat these days.. I had an exhausting day at work today, so I'm going to keep this really short.. I have Thursday and Friday off this week, which rocks, I'll actually have some nice blog time! Can't wait! :-)

Happy Monday!!

I SOOO don't wanna go to work today!!! But I keep telling myself that it's better to go to work and be busy then to sit on the couch all day.. But oh how fun it would be to just be able to sit and blog all day, I have SO much to catch up on with all you guys!! Thanks so much for the supportive welcome back! I'm constantly astounded by how awesome all of you are.. Your support means SOOO much!!

I only have a minute before I have to go, but I wanted to mention this great salad dressing I tried on Friday.. It's a Kraft Signature dressing, Roasted Red Pepper with Parmesan.. I was surprised how much lower in calories it is than some of my calorie-wise dressings.. It was 0 pts for 1 tbsp, 1 pt for 1 tbsp, and so on.. Only 20 calories and 1 gram of fat for 1 tbsp.. The best part about it is that it spreads really well through the salad, so you don't need much of it and it has a great taste.. If you haven't tried it already you should check it out!!!

Weight Loss Gum???

Not sure if any of you read about this in your morning papers, but I thought it was interesting and pretty thought provoking.. Apparently there is this gum, sugar free and made with sorbitol that causes involuntarily (at least up until now), weight loss.. The paper didn't publish the name of the gum, but with sorbitol being it's ingredient I can't imagine it would be difficult to find, wouldn't all gum with the same ingredient cause the same reaction? I have to think that there's a slightly universal amount of sugar or sugar substitute that is added to a stick of gum.. Anyway, I guess there are two cases, a male and a female, with no connection to each other, who both happen to have a fixation with chewing 18-20 sticks of gum a day. Over time both developed gastrointestinal problems and began to loose mass quanties of weight.. The woman, 21 and 114lbs, had abdominal pains lasting 8 months and lost 24 pounds.. The man, 46, developed diarrhea and bloating and lost 48 lbs over a year, a fifth of his body weight.. Neither changed their diets, or increased their exercise.. Wild, that just chewing gum could make that impact, but I guess it was documented previously that sorbitol could cause gastrointestinal problems..

The BIGGEST problem with all of this? The article was published in a British medical journal on Saturday, and already it's becoming an increasingly hot topic on websites supporting anorexia and other eating disorders, and is looking like it might become the next diet craze..

Now, being morbidly obese, I have to admit that a part of me thought, wow, I gotta git me somma that! lol!! Only for about 2 seconds though.. I know there are people who do basically the same thing by ingesting laxatives.. But would it not make them less 'guilty' of that type of purging if they were simply eating a few sticks of gum?? A part of me thinks that this gum should be pulled from the market, or at least it's producers should be forced to switch to another ingredient that doesn't cause so many problems.. Some would say that the people who are abusing the gum are mainly (hopefully), adults and should be responsible for themselves.. But if these adults are sick enough to starve themselves, couldn't it also be possible that they are unable to make a proper, healthy decision for themselves?

Ah, I could go on and on.. I'd love to hear what other people think about it, and I'm hoping there will be more articles on this subject in the future..

On a much lighter note, one of my best friends and myself are taking a shopping trip today.. I wish it were sunnier, but fun will be had nonetheless.. It's this little shop with all kinds of neat little things about half an hour away.. Should be fun. :-)

WI!!

Weigh in went well.. I was down 2 pounds.. I was a little disappointed though, stupidly.. I mean, 2 lbs is a great loss, one that I'd normally be thrilled to see!! But I've found previously that I usually have a bigger loss my first week on points.. I know, bodies' change and stuff, but I still expected a teeny bit more.. Ahh well, in all honesty I'm finding just being on the program again a reward in itself..

I'm SOO excited for dinner!! I'm having Knorr Three Mushroom sauce, with a pile of medium shrimp and some rotini whole wheat pasta.. It's one of my favorite meals.. I just mix the sauce mix with some skim milk and reduced fat margarine, it ends up being only two points for a fair amount of sauce!! It rocks.. I LOVE Knorr!

I have new weight loss motivation at work.. I work at a No Frills superstore, so it has all the housewares and outside stuff that a Loblaws would have.. Recently they expanded our clothing section and put in a whole new Joe Fresh section.. I love it!! BUT nothing fits me.. Well nothing except for the socks, slippers, mittens, you get where I'm going with this.. lol! Anyway, they keep getting all of these new shirts and jackets that I love and not a single thing will fit me.. The biggest size they have is an XL, and the clothes tend to fit on the smaller side.. GRRRRRRRRR!!! I will have me that pretty red top!!!!! :-)

Good to be back

I have officially been back on points for 7 days now, I am happy to say, although up until now I've kept it on the down low.. I guess I needed to make sure it was going to stick.. I'm not sure that anyone even reads my blog anymore, which is probably a good thing for the moment, since I'm a bit rusty at this.. I was shocked by how easy it was to get back on the program after being off of it for seven months.. I can't even believe I was off for that long!! I feel completely ashamed by that, and before you tell me I shouldn't, I think it's a pretty good motivator, it makes me want to work to make that feeling disappear.. So, tomorrow is my first weigh in, and I'm looking forward to it.. I'm thrilled to be back, and I feel amazingly positive about it..

Just in case anyone is still peaking in on my blog, I am thrilled to see how well some of my blog buddies are doing!! You guys kick ass!! I can't wait to catch up on what's been happening with all of you!! :-)