Yummiest Brekkie/Lunch EVER!!

Morning bloggers!!! It's an okay day here in Eastern, Ont., the sun is trying really hard to come out which is great!! For a little while there I thought I actually 'would' be working the Garden Center in the rain.. lol!!

I don't talk much about what I eat on here, for some reason it's still a private thing for me, I don't really get why, but I don't think I could post what I eat everyday.. Anyway, I don't mind posting about the odd, really yummy, meal.. This morning for breakfast I toasted a whole wheat english muffin, sprayed it with the Becel cooking/topping spray, used two veggie salami slices, one on each side of the eng muffin.. Divided one No Name light cheese slice (these are really good, they taste exactly like Kraft but cheaper, MUCH better than Black Diamond too), between the two halves.. Here's the good part.. I bought these little cartons of egg whites, and they're really yummy!! Who needs yolks?? Not this chick.. So for 8 tbsp it's only 1 point!! I used the Becel spray in a shitty non stick pan, and divided the eggs between the two eng muffin halves, on top of the cheese, and it was AWESOME!!!! And only 4.5 points.. The two veggie salami slices are only .5 points, so that's a REALLY good deal.. Now, I love these things, I use them on sammiches too.. I think that you might like them with eggs, and they're a lower point alternative.. They're made by Eyves, yeah I'm probably spelling that wrong, but I don't have time to go check!! lol!!

Thanks for all your comments yesterday!! :-) And have a great Friday!!

the only thing that was missing...

So, today started my crazy tanning obsession!! lol!! I was sitting here and all of a sudden thought, I need to go tanning.. So I called up the tanning salon that's just down the street from my house and they had an opening!! Yay!! So I slipped on my way too baggy blue jeans and my pretty pink crocs and off I went.. It was wonderful!! The ONLY thing that was missing was a nice pitcher of Margaritas!!! SUMMER, HERE I COME!!!! :-)

So my WI tonight was exactly what I thought it would be, so no exciting news there.. I'm down 1 lb.. I have to admit that I was a lil annoyed, I know a pound is great, but who doesn't want to loose more?? So in a way it's just fueled my fire for next week!! Now, please don't get me wrong, I am VERY happy that I lost a pound, I'm just the type that always wants to do one better than what I actually accomplish.. lol!!

Today was a beautiful sunny day here in the Ottawa Valley!! Work was good, but slow.. They're opening the Garden Center tomorrow and I get to work there for about 45 min, just covering someone's break, and I think that's gotten me all ready for the summer and beautiful weather!! Watch it start pouring!! lol!! That would be too funny.. Hope everyone had a great Thursday! ! :-)

OMG!! I can't believe I forgot to tell you!! When I got back from tanning, after hiking my damn jeans up the whole walk there and back, I decided to try on my size 20's.. And to my pleasant surprise I can almost do them up!! I was REALLY shocked by this since a couple weeks ago I could get them up over my thighs and ass, but couldn't come close to fitting them over the tire!!! And I could 'almost' do it up!! I probably wouldn't have been able to come close to zipping them, but it's still a huge NSV for me!! Yay!!!

Happy Over-The-Hump Day!! (hehe, not Jens kinda hump day! lmao!!)

Don't have much to say today.. I'm really sleepy.. I ended up opening this morning at work and got up a little after 6am, and went to bed at midnight.. Not too smart, Jen.. lol!! But I don't work until 1pm tomorrow so it's all good, I can sleep in a lil..

Weighed myself this afternoon and I was down 1 lb, which is good.. I was actually a little surprised what with the new exercise I'm doing..

Work was stressful, as always.. I get so made at people sometimes, they return the stupidest things!! Like, I had one customer who had bought a package of 6 donuts that were good until March 31 (this was also two days ago), and he returns them and wants his money back cuz they're stale.. But he's already eaten half the donuts!! Now, I'm sorry, but it doesn't take three normal sized donuts to realize that something is stale!! Can you say, ripping off the store?? lol!! Man.. But we're very 'the customer is always right', which I get, but I also think there should be a limit, especially since this guy apparently does this ALL the time!!

Okay enough customer bashing.. He's a really nice man, and I shouldn't be speaking badly of any of my customers.. It's just that sometimes, in my mind, I think that's pretty close to stealing them.. But then I tend to be hard on people sometimes.. lol!!

I LOVE Care Bears!!! If it wasn't weird I'd start buying them.. lol!! So I'm gonna post a care bear for you, from this awesome site I found!!

In honor of all of you, I'm posting Friend Bear! :-)

Need a good friend? Friend Bear would love to be your best buddy Bear! She's the perfect example of a friend. She's caring, likes to play with you and she's fun to be with!

Her Caring Mission ~ She shows how to be a great friend..

Symbol ~ Her twin, smiling flowers symbolize the joy of friendship..

Personality ~ Kind and friendly..

Character Quirk ~ A real chatterbox, she doesn't always know when to be quiet..

Best friend ~ Love a lot Bear

Motto ~ I've got a friend for you - ME!!!

lol!!! Isn't that the cutest thing ever?? When I have kids, they're getting Care Bears!! They're awesome and teach really important things!! Yeah, I'm a lil cheesy, so what!! lol!

What the heck is that big yellow ball in the sky?

Could it be??? YAY!! It is, the sun!! lol!! I swear it's been FOREVER since I've seen you!! And what better day to shine than the day I have to get out there and clean up the back yard?? I love my dog, but there's always a time after the snow melts when I question whether being a pet owner is really all it's cracked up to be.. hehe.. I'm just joking, it's not that bad, and I would NEVER trade her for anything in the world!! Plus, it's exercise right?? I'm also determined to get onto the elliptical and to do my strength training.. I've been very religious with it so far.. On my days off work I do 20 min/2 km on the elliptical and then 40 minutes of strength training.. This is only my second week doing it, but already I feel like it's becoming routine.. I'm not expecting much of a loss this week though, actually I'd be happy to STS.. It seems like whenever I start to workout it takes a bit of time for my body to get used to it and for those muscles to actually start working to burn the fat.. I'm okay with it though cuz I know it's good for me and in the long run it's going to make the difference!!

Thanks so much for your awesome posts yesterday!! I totally cried!! You girls ROCK!! And once again I'm left wondering, what would I do without you??? ~ xo

Sick of being in the Fat Chick Mafia..

I'm not sick of blogging or talking with any of you, but I'm sick of being fat, or rather the mentality that comes with being fat.. Today at work I saw this girl that I used to go to school with.. Now, she and I were never friends, we have/had friends in common though and would say hello when we saw eachother.. I haven't seen this girl in a few years, but she hasn't changed at all, and I haven't really changed that much besides the fact that I'm bigger than I was.. I have NO idea if she saw me or not, but she didn't look over and say hello when she came into the store, even though she had to walk by Customer Service where I work.. What pisses me off isn't that she didn't say hello, cuz in reality I don't care about this girl beyond normal human compassion.. What bothered me is that I equated it to my weight, she didn't say hi because she was embarassed to say hello to a fat chick.. Why do I do that?? I don't always think that way, but then usually my confidence is relatively good.. I didn't feel like I was having a low self-esteem day until after that happened and I was trying to figure out my reaction.. Now, I joined facebook a few days ago and am reconnecting with a lot of high school friends, and while NONE have made me feel that way and all have been happy to add me or message me, I still have this old high school feeling about it all... Could it be that I've reverted into past ways of thinking?? Strange, isn't it??

Thanks for all your posts yesterday!! I am going to post some progress pics soon.. I'm thinking when I get home from Kingston that I'll have some good ones to share with you.. I still think that the changes other people are seeing are minimal, I have incredibly supportive people in my life and sometimes I think that they comment on 'little' things so that I feel postive, and I SOOO appreciate and love them for it, I'm just not sure there's much to take a picture of at the moment, if you know what I mean.. lol!

My WI was on Thursday, and I've decided to really pay attention to my point intake.. I think it really helps your weekly losses if you eat different amounts daily, kinda like Wendie.. So I had a normal day on Friday, two higher days Saturday and Sunday, and am trying to have a lower day today.. I don't actually follow Wendie, she's my big gun that I'm saving for when I need her, but I'm trying to incorporate the idea of Wendie into my daily eating.. I'm pretty sure that's why I had that really good loss the week before last (actually it was Sarah that pointed that out to me, THANK YOU!).. Tonight for dinner I'm making one of my usuals, whole wheat rotini pasta with primavera sauce and lotsa shrimp.. I stocked up on Smart Pop today so I'm all set!!! Okay, I'm off to check up on all of you!! Thanks for listening to my rant!! :-)

Grooooaann

So last nights' dinner went really well!! The spaghetti turned out really well and my Uncle said that I can do amazing things with ground soy.. He said that he wouldn't even know it wasn't ground beef.. Which from him is a very big compliment, as he does enjoy his meat.. And it's a lower fat alternative which is great.. If you ever want to try it let me know and I'll give you all my secrets.. hehe.. lol!! I made garlic bread with that pre-mixed garlic butter, fresh bread and regular mozza cheese, it was SO good, and I only allowed myself one very small piece.. I even had a tablespoon of fresh parm.. Mmmm.. The one bad part? I drank too much wine!! I'm actually not sure why I'm surprised by that.. So most of my points were from wine, but thankfully because I was well behaved during the day, I only had to use 9 flex.. Yay!! But now I have an icky hangover and the munchies! lol!! That's okay though, if I use any flex I prefer it to be well before WI day..

I got quite a few NSV's last night.. I wore one of my prettier shirts and my blue jeans, and I guess it was obvious that the spare tire had deflated a lil bit.. I was thrilled by this news!! I have a hard time noticing a difference since I see myself everyday.. I have noticed that my clothes are getting bigger around my middle, but I wasn't sure it was obvious yet.. I have this beautiful pink shirt, I should take a picture of it to show you I always forget I can do that! lol!! Anyway, when I bought it, it was really tight around my belly so I've never been able to wear it.. Today I tried it on because I would LOVE to be able to wear it in Kingston at my bday dinner, and it fit!!! YAY!! It's baggy, but not super baggy, which is good.. So now I just have to buy some new shoes and figure out what jewelry to wear! :-)

We had birthday cake at my Grandma's this afternoon for my Mom's bday.. I hadn't eaten yet since I'd slept pretty much right up until we had to go.. hehe.. Damn hangover.. Anyway, I brought one of my Skinny Cow sundae cups with me (2 points!!) it was yummy and I didn't mind at all that I didn't get to eat any cake!!! But since my bday is next there was lots of talk about cake and dinners, and I'm afraid there's gonna be lots of poundage gained around that time.. I'm going to Ktown the weekend of the 13th, and I've planned to not count points and just have a treat myself weekend for that time.. BUT, I don't want to do that over my real bday weekend.. So, my cousin asked if I wanted to go out to dinner that weekend with another cousin (he and I share a bday, both on April 9th).. I picked the restaurant and they've got a really yummy Greek pizza that's not too bad point wise.. Afterwards we'll be going back to my Grandma's for Dairy Queen cake (my favorite), and I'll have some of that.. And then Monday night we're having a family dinner here for me, but again I'll get to pick what we eat.. Sooo, I'm thinking I'll just have to be really strong that weekend, as it's also Easter weekend, and we always have a big family dinner to celebrate on the Sunday after church.. I have to be tough!! Sorry, this is really long, I'm gonna stop babbling now!! lol!! Hope you all had a great weekend!! :-)

Ahhh, the weekend..

I feel like I haven't posted in forever!!! Yesterday before work I wanted to, but was having internet connection problems, so I didn't even get to check anyone elses blog!! Grrr.. I worked until 9pm last night and was SOOO stressed out when I got home because I had THE WORST customer in the world.. Even bigger Grrrr.. So here I am and it's already Saturday and I feel SO out of touch with blogland! lol!!

Thankfully I have the weekend off work.. My Mom's birthday is tomorrow, so tonight we're having my Aunt, Uncle and Grandma over for dinner.. I'm making a huge pot of veggie spaghetti (made with ground soy instead of ground beef).. With lots of garlic and fresh mushrooms.. It's great too because that recipe is completly points friendly.. I'm making them loaves of garlic bread with lots of garlic butter and regular mozza cheese on top.. They'll also have lots of fresh parm for their pasta.. I'm not sure if I'll just use a little fresh parm or go with my already grated Kraft parm.. lol!! For desert we're having fresh fruit, and I'm making a cool whip dip with lemon jello crystals mixed in for flavor.. It's awesome, and the cool whip is light, so I'm going to make a little with my sugar free jello too.. All in all it should be a very point friendly evening for me.. Except for the gallon of wine I'm planning on drinking.. hehe.. Not really a gallon, but quite a few glasses anyway.. I LOVE red wine and I never let myself have it, so it's my treat for the week.. Tomorrow afternoon we're having cake for her at my Grandma's house, and I of coarse, will bring my own seperate little treat to have while they're eating yummy cake..

It's funny though, you'd think that I'd be feeling cheated, or sad because I can't eat everything they can eat.. But I totally don't! It's all worth it to me.. And my birthday w/e in Kingston is coming up soon and I don't plan on counting the entire time I'm away.. I'm cool with the 2, 3 or 4 pounds that I'll put on, and then I'll work hard the next week to take it all off.. It's keeping me on track knowing that I can have my own cake soon.. :-)

Hope everyone is having an awesome weekend!!! I'm determined to get all caught up with each and every one of your blogs very soon!! :-)

It's that time again...

So, I've decided to keep Thursday as my WI day.. Mainly because when I got to work, still undecided, I noticed that the schedule has me working the same shift next Thursday, but that next Fridays shift is a short one too.. After a moment of frustration I realized that's the way my job is, I don't have a set schedule, my shifts are rarely the same.. It's silly to move my WI days around my work schedule.. I know what I need to do on/before WI's, that's all that matters, so I decided right there that I was sticking with Thursdays!! I'm such a geek sometimes, I swear!! lol!!

Soooo *drumroll* I weighed in when I got home from work and I was down 2 lbs!! Yay!! I'm pretty psyched about it because I was positive I'd stay the same this week after having a better than normal WI last week.. So yep, I'll take it!!

So to celebrate my happy WI I treated myself to my usual post WI meal, a super yummy Dr. Oetker's mozzarella pizza!! I topped it with some onion, tomato and a few sliced green olives.. I love me some pizza!!! It's probably one of my biggest weaknesses, but I figure it's an okay one as long as it's in moderation and it's not the fast food greasy kind.. The good thing about having it the night of my WI is that I have a whole week to redeem myself.. lol!!

Thank you guys for all your supportive comments today!! You rock, and it's SOOOOO appreciated!! :-)

It's a blustery blahhh day here in Eastern Ontario

Yep, it's icky outside and I feel icky!! I kinda feel like Eeyore actually.. lol!! Today is supposed to be my WI day.. But since my work schedule came out, I've been thinking I should switch my WI to Fridays.. I always get my best results after working a long shift, and I USED to get those shifts on Thursdays, but for the last lil bit (last week not included), I've been getting shit shifts on Thursdays and Fridays have been my long shifts.. So I think that's why I'm cranky, cuz I can't make up my mind.. I like to weigh in on Thursdays, but I really like what I see after a long day of work.. I think I'm feeling a little pressure because I normally weigh in on Thursday nights, so I feel like I have to make up my mind before WI time or it's cheating.. Like you can't see your WI and then decided to WI the next day instead, you know?? Bahh..

For the most part Weight Watchers is a very positive experience for me, mostly because I feel healthier and I know I'm doing something about my weight and that combines to make me a much more positive person.. But last night right before bed I got super angry all of a sudden. It was SO strange! It was all I could do not to bawl like a little baby.. I think I just got sick of caring so much, of having SO many emotions tied to loosing weight.. Of having to try so hard all the time.. I shook it off and went to bed, but I'm still feeling a bit of that this morning.. I'm not sure if any of you ever experience that kind of frustration with the program.. Maybe it's just because I have this weigh in day dilema underlying it.. Grr..

I'm going into work an hour early today so I can shop for makeup, that should brighten my mood a little bit.. lol!! But I wanted to thank all of you for your awesome comments about my willpower and the junk drawer at work.. Reading those comments this morning REALLY made a difference for me, like you gave me some sunshine on a grey day, if that makes sense.. Thank you for that!!

Justice is Served!!!

So I go into work today and what do I hear from my head manager as SOON as I get there?? They got the shoplifter guy!! Not only did they get him, but they got my camera back!!! YAYYYY!!! So he'll be prosecuted and all that good stuff.. I almost want to go to court just to see it! lol!! Seriously I totally took it personally.. I guess I don't have a whole lot of experience with shoplifters.. Anyway, they got him and the camera and that's all that matters!!

I picked up some Weight Watchers bread today, I can't believe that it's only 1 point for 2 slices.. That just seems amazing to me.. I'm SO proud of my little town, or more importantly my store, because we actually have a lot of the products that I see mentioned in other blogs or on the GDT.. I'm also really loving all of the Knorr pasta sauces (thanks Amanda!!), I tried the Primavera last night with shrimp and whole wheat rotini, it was SO good!! And today I picked up the Creamy Garlic.. OHHH, and I also found some cinnimon hearts that have a nutrition label!! Normally they come in these little square packages with no NI listed, but at work we sell them in bigger tubs (a co-worker bought some NOT me!! lol!), and there's actually NI on the label.. So if any of you like'em and want to know the info let me know!! We have a junk drawer there, in the Photo Lab, and they keep it stocked with everything, every kind of chocolate or candy you can imagine.. I have a fat picture of myself on a ledge right above it, so I'm never tempted to go into the 'junk' drawer! lol!!

Happy Hump Day!!! hehehe..

Morning blogland!! It's bright and sunny here and the snow is melting away (again)! I heard on the radio that it's supposed to go up to 12 by the end of the week!! WOOHOO!! I'm SOO ready for that!!!
I'm sure all of you have tried these lil gems before, but just in case you hadn't I had to give them a shout out.. I LOVE them!! I just had one for breakfast with a Source raspberry cranberry crumble and an All Bran bar, and I feel great! The best part?? They're only 1 pt!!! Now I'm a bit of a cheese freak, but I've ALWAYS loved Babybel cheese, and when I found out I could still eat them I was pretty psyched.. With a couple crackers they'd also make an awesome afternoon snack!


Well, I'm off to work now!! I don't have time to check any of your blogs this morning unfortunetly, cuz I'm running a little late, but I'll be checking in when I get home from work!!! Hope everyone is having an awesome day!! :-)

Yayyy!!

So I spent most of my afternoon at the GDT and was inspired by a particular post.. I guess this girl wasn't feeling well today, bad head cold (not me), and wanted to know how many people workout when they're sick.. At this time I still felt pretty awful, but I read all of the replies and kept up with it throughout the afternoon.. Low and behold because of that post I was inspired to get off my butt!! I did 40 minutes of strength training exercises that I actually found on the Weight Watchers website.. They have exercises that cover upper body, lower body and core body.. I really liked them and could totally feel it afterwards... Well doing those exercises inspired me to get on the eliptical, so I did 20 minutes on there too!! I'm feeling pretty darn good right now!! Thank you for all your replies about working out, I really appreciate hearing all the different perspectives!! :-)

Kind of Annoyed

So I have the day off work today, and I had all of these great plans! I was going to eliptical, and then start a strength training routine that I would do along with the eliptical on each day off work.. I was all psyched about it because weigh in is on Thursday and I thought, what an awesome time to start this!! I keep hearing from people that it's bad to workout the day before a weigh in, so I thought Wednesday would be out for that reason.. I was SO excited! I even got help from Shaunna (thank you!!) deciding what weight my dumbells should be to start off with.. So then I wake up this morning and I feel like crapola!! lol!! I'm just blah.. And I'm afraid that I'd passout if I did any of the things I was excited about.. Grr!!! So instead I'm going to blog, spend some time on the GDT and download some music for my new toy.. Oh, and I'll probably take a LONG nap later!!

My question to you fine people is this, what are your opinions on working out the day before a WI?? Because if I'm feeling better tomorrow I may want to get on the eliptical for a little bit, or at least do the weight training thing.. Any thoughts?

Happy Birthday To Meee!!!

Okay, so it's not really my birthday.. BUT last night I got my first birthday present! :-) My birthday isn't until April 9th, a long while away yet.. But, my Mom, her husband, and my Grandma decided to go together and get me this pretty lil MP3 player from Sony.. I told my Mom that we had one at my store and that I really wanted it and she, knowing me SO well, knew that I'd want it early.. I'm taking the train to Kingston on the 14th of April, she knew I'd want to know how to use it and have all my songs downloaded long before then, which gives me lots of time to play with it.. I'm not sure if you can tell from the picture, but it's pink, and it holds 18 hours of music.. Not only that, but it comes with an armband so you can strap it to you when you're jogging or working out.. It also counts calories, has a stop watch and you can program it to play faster songs when you're moving at a faster pace, or slower songs when you slow down.. It'll just do all that on it's own!! And it's got a stopwatch, and you can program it to tell you when you've walked a km, or whatever distance you choose.. Isn't that cool?? Technology kills me! lol!! So I'm pretty excited about it, and am making lists of songs that I want to put on it.. My favorite thing about it?? The colour of course.. It'll match perfectly with my pink camera, and my pink cell phone.. Hee hee.. :-)

I had a pretty stressful day at work today.. On the weekend someone stole a $400 camera from my work section.. I was the only one working at the time, and it's always busy in our area, but I STILL feel responsible.. The security system that's supposed to prevent things like this from happening doeesn't work, so I had no way of knowing until I noticed that the camera was gone.. It sucks because I feel like he stole from me, not from my store.. Today was difficult because all of my bosses were in and the police were contacted.. I just felt so awful about it all.. I wish I knew who it was so I could hunt him down and kick his thieving ass!! I hate people like that!! Grrr.. Anyway, thanks for the vent! I talked to my head manager who I LOVE and she made me feel a lot better about it, and assured me that it can happen to anyone and not to worry about it, but to use it as a learning experience.. I felt much better after that.. I'd still like to kick his ass though.. :-(

Starting to feel much better cold wise! Thanks for all of your get well wishes! :-) I have tomorrow off work so I'm determined to do some psychology homework and get in some good workout time!! I want to see another loss this week!! I think I'm getting greedy, but in this case, I think greed is okay.. Well, I'm off to check out all of your blogs, hope you had an awesome Monday! :-)

Icckkk

I feel super icky today!! I'm soo sleepy and stuffed up and just have that weak and blecky cold feeling.. The worst part is, when I have a cold I eat like a crazy person!! You know the saying feel a cold starve a fever?? Well it's as if my tummy 'knows' it.. Or maybe it's all in my head.. Either way, I just wanna EAT! I have lots of flex left and all of todays points, so I'm gonna eat.. I'm just going to make sure that I don't over eat.. Grrr.. I hope this thing goes away fast!! I've been drinking lots of Neo Citron cuz it makes you feel all fuzzy and comfy.. And it has NO points!! lol!! Hope you're all having a great Sunday!! :-)

Good morning!!

HAPPY ST. PATRICKS DAY!!!!

So I'm not technically Irish, but any day that give you and excuse to drink beer all day long is cool with me! lol!! I always wished I was Irish though.. So I hope you're all doing something fun today!! I'm still nursing a massive head cold, so no green beer for me!! :-( I have to work today from 7-4, which normally would be an awesome shift, but because I feel like one of the zombies from Night of the Living Dead, I'm not looking forward to it as much.. lol!! Plus, we got a pile of snow last night and it promises to hold out throughout the afternoon.. Bleck! I was all into spring.. Have a great day everyone!! I'd love to hear about any fun plans you have, so I can live vicariously though you!! lol!! I'm off to finish getting ready for work! :-)

Do you KNOW how excited I am???

There's excited and then there's me!!! SUPER excited crazy woman!! lol!! Okay, I'm sorry about today, that was a lil mean not tell you, but in ALL honesty I was afraid that I would jinx myself.. So I didn't really do it to be mean.. :-( I hope you all still love me!!! So, this morning I weighed in at 227 which is an awesome 2 lb loss.. I came SOOO close to just using that as my weigh in weight for this week.. But I thought, no, I should really wait, just in case.. Well holy crapola!! Am I EVER glad that I did!!! I'm down to 225!! That's a 4 lb loss for this week.. I have NO IDEA how that's even possible.. I did stay completely within plan and had 13 flex left, but I still felt a little like I wasn't making great choices.. I've been faithful with WW for months now and it still continues to surprise me and give me those joyeous "I LOVE WW" moments! lol!! Thanks SO much for talking me through my down periods this week! The way I was feeling this could've easily been a gain instead of a loss, but you kept me encouraged and motivated.. THANK YOU!!! :-)

It's weigh in day!!!

So it's happy weigh in day for me!!! I'm excited cuz I took a peek this morning.. However, I'm not actually going to weigh in until tonight when I get home from work.. For some reason running around like a crazy chick for 7 or 8 hours gets me at my lowest weight, kinda like it is for people people first thing in the morning.. So I figure 'maybe' I can get a better number, if not I'm pretty happy with the one that I got.. hee hee.. Not telling what it is!! lol!! I suck, I know.. I don't get off work until 9pm, so the people out here in Ontario and East might be in bed by the time I post, but you Westerners might still be up! Either way you'll see by tomorrow!! Keep your fingers crossed for me and send me lotsa loser vibes iffn' you can!! Thank you!!! :-)

I freakin' LOVE you guys!!! :-)

Seriously, I read your comments before work today (and some last night), and you TOTALLY made my day!! I don't know what you're talking about ME being so supportive!! You are absolutely the most supportive people ever, and I SOOO appreciate it!! I went into work today feeling SO special and so inspired and I wish you were all here so I could squeeze the stuffin's outta you!!! :-) Thank you again!!



I have some new products to report on! lol!! I tried the 3 Mushroom Pasta sauce from Knorr last night.. It was awesome!! I tried to find a picture to post here but wasn't able to.. I used 2 tsp of light margarine (Becel) and 3/4 cup of skim milk with the powder.. And then added 10 large shrimp and had it over some rotini pasta.. I used Healthy Harvest whole wheat/Omega 3 pasta.. It was SO good I was really surprised.. Altogether, because I used 2 cups of the pasta, it was 10 points.. I had a huge salad with it too.. I don't eat much during the day so I tend to have bigger dinners, but for that much food 10 points was pretty good!!

Also, I was able to find some Skinny Cow products yesterday.. YAY!!! I tried one of the vanilla ice cream sammiches last night and it was SO good!! It's actually a good size! I'm so used to everything healthy or low fat being a smaller portion, but this wasn't.. It was awesome, and only 3 points.. In all honesty, I would've paid 4 or 5 points for that baby!! lol!! Now we all have different tastes, so I can't guarantee that you'll like it, heck most of you may have already tried it.. But I was SUPER happy with the product and would absolutely buy this and the Knorr 3 Mushroom sc again..

Frustration..

I tend to be one of those people who hates discussing negative things.. I hate bringing other people down, or even just the risk of bringing them down.. Stupid, I know.. Like I have 'that' much influence over anyone elses' life.. For me it's always been about having fun all the time, at all costs.. Which is probably why I'm humungo.. So for the last few days I've been avoiding dealing with some frustrations.. I've mentioned them in comments to some of the other bloggers, but never really dealt with why I was feeling frustrated.. So now I am..

I have been pigging out!! Seriously, I've been eating and eating.. I'll be full, and I still eat!! All within my points.. Well, Thursday was my WI and I have 13 flex points left.. The problem is that I'm eating bad things.. Like in one day I'll have 5 WW cakes.. Or for dinner I'll have 17 pt burritos.. So am I following plan, yes, technically.. But not the way I should be.. And I've known it.. I guess this is better than what I'd usually do which is just go off plan altogether.. Still, I'm a scale junkie.. I weigh myself during the week so I can see what needs to be done before WI.. I haven't lost anything yet this week.. And yeah, I'm being a little tough on myself here, but that's how I roll..

So yesterday when I was trying on those jeans and setting new goals, I had a moment where I felt that giving up feeling, like I'll never reach that goal.. And it kinda lite a fire under my ass and made me want to do better.. When I'm at work I'm crazy busy, always on my feet, always running from one place to another.. My best WI weeks are always right after I've had a week with lots of hours at work.. But because I run around so much at work, and because I'm SOO not used to being on my feet for that amount of time each day, I've been neglecting any and all exercise.. When I get home I'm just too tired.. Now our hours have been cut back a little bit, so I'm not working as much, so I'm not seeing the losses I was seeing when I first started.. So I'm feeling frustrated, and eating more.. Stupid girl.. lol!! So today, I pulled my lip back up from the ground and stopped feeling sorry for myself.. I've eaten well all day, did some productive shopping, and even got onto the eliptical for a good 20 minute, 2/km burn.. I've made the commitment to exercise EVERY day off I have.. When I get used to working I'll up it to exercising even on the days I work.. I've also commited to getting my eating back under control..

So this is me fessing up to my human-like feelings, and it's me being accountable for my actions, and the way those actions will be changing..

My New Mini~Goal

I think it's important for us to set smaller goals for ourselves along our weightloss journey, smaller goals that we can celebrate when we've reached them.. I think it makes the journey itself a little shorter.. Anyway, today when I got home from work I decided that it was time to once again, pull out some old jeans and see how close I am to fitting into them.. I'm still quite a while away from being able to, and I knew that going into it.. About a month ago I tried them on and could barely get them up over my ass.. Well, this time they fit my legs and my butt, but wouldn't even come close to fitting over the spare tire.. lol!! Darn thing, deflate already!!!!!!!!! So these are my new 'mini goal'.. Right now I wear a plus size 22 (stretch). These babies are Old Navy (regular) size 20's.. And they haven't fit me in over 4 years.. The next time you see them, I'll be wearing'em!! Mark my words!! lol!! I'm gonna make'em my bitch!! hee hee.. :-)

Yummy soup!

So, I tried one of the Spring Vegetable Cup-a-Soup's for lunch today.. I was suprised by how good it was!! Because I don't eat meat (only fish) it's hard to find a vegetable soup that I really like that has noodles and is made without beef broth.. I hate the big chunks of veggies that you find in ministrone and other soups in a can.. I tend to stick to low fat cream of mushroom and low fat cream of broccoli.. But for 2 and 3 points a cup, they can be high depending on the type of day I'm having.. This lil gem was only 1 point for a cup!! I was thrilled, and I love the lil noodles in it! Now I just have to find some low points crackers to go in it.. lol!! And this was my first time posting a picture of food, so I'm pretty impressed with myself right now.. lol!! Okay, off to eat my soup and then to work!!

Some funnies..

~ Inside every older person is a younger person wondering what the hell happened.. Cora Harvey Armstrong

~ If you can't be a good example then you'll just have to be a horrible warning.. Catherine

~ I'm not going to vaccum til' Sears makes one you can ride on.. Roseanne Bar

~ Behind every successful man is a surprised woman.. Maryon Pearson

~ When life hands you lemons ask for tequila and salt

And my personal favorite:

~ Inside me lives a skinny woman crying to get out. But I can usually shut the bitch up with cookies..

lol!! Now that last one was my favorite cuz it was just hilarious and SOOOO what I used to be about!! I think we've all been there!!

International Womens Day!!!

Since today is International Womens Day, I thought I'd start my post by thanking my wonderful women blogger friends, who EVERYDAY touch my heart and inspire me to do great things.. I have no idea what I would do without you wonderful women, I feel like I owe so much of where I am now and the distance I've come to your support and kindness.. So thank you SO much!!

Okay, so that made me a lil weepy.. I'm such an emotional person, especially when something means a lot to me.. I'm also really, really tired.. I got a little over 4 hours sleep last night and had to be at work for 8am this morning.. I was in bed early, but wasn't able to get to sleep for about 3 hours.. I have a feeling I'll be crawling into bed early tonight.. lol!!

Work was good today.. I'm SO happy to be able to say that as it's been incredibly stressful lately.. I work in Customer Service and the Photo Lab.. We're constantly running back and forth between the two so I get lots of exercise, but I also have to hear lots of bitching and moaning.. Now, in some cases I really do feel badly for the person if it was a big mistake that was made.. But in most cases it's something trivial and they end up being mistaken because they've read thier receipt wrong.. I just smile and apologize for other peoples' mistakes.. It's hard sometimes.. Anyway, rant over, work was good today.. lol!!

And I had my WI, I'm down another pound this week.. Is it awful that I was hoping for more?? I think because I had such a good week last week that I'm a little spoiled.. But then part of me was also dreading it because I was afraid I'd be up.. So I'm gonna take that 1 lb and be happy with it! It's a pound in the right direction and the best part is that I'm now in the 220's!! YAY!!!! I'm pretty psyched about that!! And having these losses makes me want to be even better this week!!

SOOO Excited!!!

So I 'just' booked my appointment for my 30th birthday tattoo!! You've already seen it, it's a couple of posts down, the Luna Moth.. I'm going to get it on my upper arm/shoulder.. I'm SOO excited!! Tattoo's are most definitly addictive, but because I'm so picky about what I get I generally take years in between getting them.. I have two already, this will be my third.. And I have another one that I'm waiting to get at goal.. She's a beautiful fairy.. I LOVE tattoos!!!!

And I just booked my train ticket to Kingston!! SOOO excited!! I love my city, and I miss it SOO much!! I was raised where I live now, in Renfrew (Ottawa Valley), but I moved to Ktown and lived there for 7 years.. I've been back in Renfrew now for almost 3, and I miss Kingston all the time.. Not to mention one of my bestfriends who still lives there.. It's been 5 months since I've been back, so I'm so excited.. It's such a beautiful city.. Part of me is still there, I think.. Sometimes I think about moving back, but I like being close to my family.. I'm torn!! lol!! As soon as my train gets into Kingston I'm going to see my hair lady, she's fabulous!! She'll make my hair look like a Pantene Commercial.. I LOVE her.. Then the next day I go for my tattoo!! I'll make sure to post pictures of both after I get home!! How will I be able to wait another month?? lol

I just hope I can loose a few more pounds before I go, that would be the one thing that would make my bday weekend away even more special!!

Ever Have Those Days??

When you WISH with all your heart that you could just press fast forward and have the weight fall off you?? Seriously, I wish I could speed this process up.. You're probably thinking 'uhmm, yeah Jen, try everyday' and you're right, if I really thought about it I'm sure everyday I would wish to be at my goal weight.. But most days I find myself just happy to be commited to this journey, and happy to be feeling healthier.. Because in all honesty, by doing this day by day process we're not just loosing weight we're gaining other positive things.. The ablility and the strength, not to mention the patience, to really work for something that we want.. That must develop some kind of good juju for us right?? If you don't know what juju is, it's kinda like karma, but not so much in the 'do unto others' way.. Anyway, most days I'm temporarily satisfied with my progress, at least these days.. But today, ALL day I just really wanted to be at that end place.. I felt fat and frumpy all day! It didn't necesarily bring me down or anything, it just made me wish I worked by remote and could press fast forward..

My Celebrity Look-alikes

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Finally did the celebrity look a like thing that Amanda did.. Yeah, I'm a copycat.. lol!! It was lotsa fun!! I only did it the one time, but if I get other face pictures I think I'd try it again, just for fun.. :-)

My Saturday

Feeling ickey again today.. I woke up and my damn throat was sore again!! lol! It's taking a while to kick this thing.. I was totally feeling better a couple days ago.. I think maybe it's because I've been working so much.. But, I have this weekend off so hopefully I'll be feeling better by Monday! :-) Did I mention that I'm also wanting to eat everything in sight?? It's awful!! Luckily I still have all my flex, but I'm kinda trying to hold onto them since my WI day isn't until Thursday so they have to last me.. But then I think about how many of them I actually use during the week, which is none.. So I think I might dig into them today, it's what they're there for right??

I posted the pretty moth because it's the next tattoo I'm thinking about getting.. It's funny because everyone always thinks that butterflys are the pretty ones and that moths are ugly.. I think it'd be cool to have this on my arm and someone will say, ohh, what a pretty butterfly and I can say, actually (in my smart voice, lol!), it's a Luna Moth.. hee hee.. Yeah, sometimes I wonder what's going on in my brian.. Anyway, it's beautiful and feminine and I think it'd make a great tattoo!! I'm hoping to get it done when I'm in Kingston for my birthday.. I have a gift certificate for my fav tattoo parlour down there.. The way I'm talking you'd think I'm a tattoo' Momma, but I only have two.. I'm just really picky and like to think it through completely before I get one.. Cuz it's permanant right? And I've heard that removing them is WAY more painful than getting one..

Okay, gonna go stuff my face with somethin'! lol!! Hope everyone is having a great weekend!! :-)

Yay!!

So my WI went well!! It did turn out to be 230 lbs, which is down 3.. I'm pretty excited as 3 is a fairly good jump down.. Secretly though, I was kinda hoping that I'd be down to 129 today.. lol!! Serves me right for getting on the scale before it was time!! So yeah, I'm pretty excited and happy and I hope that I can keep it up!! I'm almost into the 220's!! Wow!! Yeah, you guys know, I love Weight Watchers.. lol!!

I just found out tonight that I have a new lil nephew!! His name is Jake and he's white and wriggly and puppyish, and I love him already!! My bestfriend finally got the dog she's been wanting for SOOO long! And I swear, I'm as excited for her as I am for my other friend who's having a human baby.. I can't WAIT to meet him and spoil him and give him kisses!! lol!!

I'm going to go treat myself with a frozen pizza for supper and some Survivor on the tv.. Thanks SOO much for your encouragement and for sharing my excitement over the loss.. Have I mentioned that you guys are the best bunch of supporters a girl could have?? Thank you!!! ~ xo