Quick Update

Hey, bloggers!!! Just a quick post to let you know that everything's good! I have lots of news to share with all of you! I'm just feeling a little under the weather at the moment.. I had an endometriosis flare up, so I'm taking a few days to be crampy and icky and then I'll be back at'er!! Missing you though!!! :-)

It's Relay Day!!! :-)

Today's the day!! I love the Relay, not only is it an amazing cause, but it's SO much fun! There are live bands all night, and Beaver Tails and chip wagons.. lol!! Okay, so no Beaver Tails or French Fries for me, but the band will be cool!! And everyone wears glow in the dark things.. Our team's motto for this year is "Say Anything", so everyone is to wear a tshirt that has a saying on it, like, shit happens or something like that.. Mine has a picture of Betty Boop and says, "I sold my soul for Rock and Roll" LOVE IT!! I'm gonna be the coolest chick there!!! hehe.. I'm also bringing a disposable camera so I can take pics to show you guys!! And in a little bit I'm heading to No Frills to pick up some veggie meat (talk about oxymoron), and some other low point snacks, as well as a little container of half and half cream. I figure it's better than Tim Hortons cream, and it's countable..

I don't have a whole lot of time today, so I'm gonna try to make it to your blogs but if I don't I'll catch up over the w/e! Oh, and no news yet on the appartment.. I'm pretty sure I didn't get it.. :-( I guess it just wasn't meant to be!

Thank Goodness!!

I woke up this morning, not only motivated (thanks again), but HAPPY to be on the program!! You know that content, positive feeling you get just from following and loving the program, that's what I got back!! Yay!! I honestly was starting to wonder if I would.. Sheesh.. Anyway, I feel like I'm 100% commited and that feels great!

No word yet about the appartment.. I work until 9pm tonight, and I bet I'll be nervous about it all afternoon and evening.. I wish he'd just call!! But I kinda have the feeling that I won't get it, mainly because I don't know why the other person wouldn't want to grab it right up!! Thanks for all the finger and toe crossing!! I'll let you know when I hear something!! :-)

A Quick Thanks..

I've been having one of those days where I'm not frustrated or anything, but maybe feeling a lil blah on the weightloss front.. Not that I'm quiting or anything, FAR from it, I just kind of feel like, damn am I ever going to get there?? So I read back through comments that all of you have left, especially over the last little bit with me not being around much.. You're supportive all the time, amazingly so, and I'm so thankful for all of you.. My motivation went from a 7 to a 10, just from reading words that you wrote, that's how much you guys rock!! THANK YOU! :-)

I made a few difficult decisions today regarding school and the move back to Kingston.. I'm still really unsure about what to do.. I'm really happy here too, and the other day at work I actually got a cash bonus for the good job that I'm doing.. Funny how hearing that made my job so much more enjoyable.. I don't think you can actually have fun doing anything that you think you might be doing badly, or at least that other people think you might be doing badly.. So that, combined with my uneasiness over my previous decision has made me decide to stay put, at least until next September.. I came to the conclusion that Kingston will still be there, the program is doing awesome, and isn't going anywhere and spending about $10 000 should involve a little more thought considering that could also be a down payment on a nice little house.. I just feel like I need more time..

The apartment that I've been wanting here in Renfrew just came available (which has nothing to do with my Kingston decision!), and I called the landlord tonight.. He had JUST shown it to some lady!! He said that he was sure she was going to take it, and that I should've called him yesterday.. How annoying is that?? He told me he'd keep me posted, and I'm pretty sure if she decided not to take it that he'd give it to me.. It's just so perfect and the gardens are awesome, big back yard and deck... I WANT IT!! lol!! So keep your fingers crossed for me, k? ~ xo

TaDaaaa!!!!

Can you believe it?? Two days in a row!! Darn I'm good.. hehe.. I've had a loooonng day and I'm sleepy, so I'm feeling crazy silly right now.. I'm also feeling silly because of the scale experience I just had.. So yesterday I weighed myself, it was my 1st whole day back OP and the scale said 246.. Even typing that number makes me puke in my mouth a lil bit (sorry, that's a little crass but that's really how bad it made me feel seeing that number!).. Anyway, today I weighed myself and I was at 237!! Weird, eh?? Now, I posted yesterday that I thought most of that number was water retention and other stuff, but it seems like quite a jump to me.. I was just happy, and breathing a huge sigh of relief to see a somewhat normal number again.. It also made me realize how much I NEVER want to be there again!

That's it for today!!!!!!!

Oh, one more thing;


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Ohhhhh, My Gawd!

Okay, so I'm back at it again.. It's cool because it wasn't a decision I made, it was something I felt I had to do.. My eating has just been way out of control and I totally feel 'puffy'.. Not to mention the 16 pounds I've somehow managed to pile back on *groan*.. I'm sure most of it is water retention and BM issues, but still, I NEVER wanted to see *that* number on the scale again!! Grrrr..

Why can't this be easier? I'm seriously not mad at myself.. I mean, I'm a little disappointed, but shit happens and I'm over it.. What's important is that I've been back OP all day today and that hopefully it'll stay that way.. I just have to figure out how I can make more time for blogging and for keep up with you guys, because that is what truly makes the difference for me, all of you and being able to keep up with you and stuff..

Thanks for all your supportive posts about going back to school! It's hard, but it needs to be done, and I'm not 'that' old right?? hehe..

I'm sorry if my gaps in posting has made any of you think I was planning on pulling a Houdini, that WILL NOT happen again! Time just got away on me is all, but I've been getting more regular days off now that I don't have to cover shifts for others, and we have a new girl in at work..

I'm doing the Relay for Life this Friday!! I'm looking forward to it but I'm a bit nervous.. My leg is much better now, but that'll be pushing it.. Maybe that's a good thing though? Maybe I need to push it a little beyond what I have already to get that extra confidence in it.. Anyway, I'm looking forward to it, but the eating part will be REALLY hard! Not sure what I'll do yet as far as points.. Maybe just allow myself all the coffee I want, but everything else has to be on points.. But then I'm also walking around a track on and off for the entire night so that's gotta count for lots of AP's, right?? I'll figure something out I'm sure.. lol!

Frustrated

I cannot believe that it's been 12 days since I've blogged!!! That's almost 2 weeks!! Wtf?? lol! Seriously it feels like it's been a week or something.. I'm getting pretty frustrated with my job.. It's like I'm tired ALL the time! And it's messing with some of my relationships because after having people complain to you all day the very last thing you feel like doing is talking to more people! I know there's a difference, between bitchy customers and loving friends, but it's almost like my brain turns to mush the second I walk out of there! Which has brought me to my week of contemplation.. There's very little else for me to do where I'm living.. There isn't a college, there's factory work, but working on an assembly line isn't something that would make me happy.. And that's what I'm looking for in all this, happiness, and also the ability to support myself comfortably.. So yesterday, after realizing that I can't do this job forever, I applied to Esthetics at St. Lawrence college in Kingston.. I'd taken it before but was unable to finish my placement hours because of illness (long story).. So I know I'll enjoy it, it's a 10 month program and it's in a city that is home to me, where my bestfriend lives.. So keep your fingers crossed for me!! I haven't completely decided yet, I just kind of reached a breaking point and needed to make a move in a positive direction.. I feel badly for not including all of you in my thoughts over this, but I'm the type that closes up when faced with a difficult decision or situation..

On to the weight thing.. The frustration is here too!! There's something about the nice weather that sends my decipline flying out the window!! lol!! So that's definitly something I need to get back under control, especially if I'm going back to school, I'm gonna need me some confidence!!!

Oh, and the big thing that was going on the last time I posted was a baby shower!! One of my bestfriends is expecting in early July, so my other bf and I threw her a bigass baby shower!!! That's why I wasn't around much during that time, every day off was spent planning or shopping.. I'm SOO glad it's over, and also glad that it went so well!! :-) I'll see about posting some pics soon!!

Hope you're all doing well! I miss you all so much! :-(

Finally a Day Off!!!!

Hey, guys!!! It feels like forever since I've posted! I hate work.. It stinks.. I'm sorry I've been so busy! I haven't been to your blogs at all lately!! I can tell you tomorrow another reason why I've been so busy, but until then it's top secret!! You'll understand why when I tell you, which actually probably won't be until Sunday.. I was supposed to have it off too but now I have to work.. :-(

So WI was Thursday, and I was down 1 lb.. Not much but I'm happy with it because I haven't been eating the greatest.. I find that when I'm working this much and I'm just so tired all the time that it's hard to eat really well, anyway, I'm starting to get the hang of it! I swear though, that 1 lb is totally because of work and how busy I am while working.. That's reason enough to make me never wanna quit my job!! lol!! Or at least no time in the near future!!

So I have some silly pics for you guys!! They're of new accessories!! lol!! But yeah, I looked like hell at the time and I took the pics myself so beware!!!

This is a picture of my new, very yummy, sunglasses! They're made by Juicy Couture.. They were regularily $155.00 + tax, but because my Mom used to work there and my Aunt still does (Thank you Aunt Debbie!! xo) I got them for $115.00.. They're delicious, I'm madly in love with them!!

Another pic of my sunglasses.. Nice face, eh? I have NO idea what I'm trying to do with my mouth.. lol!

My new hat!! I normally look AWFUL in hats! Actually I've never worn one for that reason.. They always look big and clumsy on me, and with my tiny forehead they just never fit right..

Well I gots me a kids hat, and it works!! lol!! Yay!!! This one is army green and has the word Girl in grey with little rhinestones on the words.. hehehe..

Another hat pic.. Really dark though, sorry! :-(

Here's the last pic, one of my new tattoo, my Luna Moth.. I love it, SOOO much.. But after I took these pictures I noticed that he screwed it up!! I don't know if you can notice it. I'm trying to decide how to handle it, if I should phone them and tell them I want it fixed.. I've never been in this position before!!! :-( Oh, and it does look a little unbalanced right now because of the way I had to move my arm to take the picture, it's normally not that messed up! Just, one wing is a little closer to it's body thank the other.. But both wings are the same size (I know they don't look like it here though!) That's why I'm making the funny mouth again, cuz it's a weird position..

And I should have more pics after tomorrow!! I tried on some clothes today, shirts, that didn't fit before that were tight around the spare tire, and they fit!! I was shocked!! So tomorrow I'm wearing my new size 2o+ jean capri's (I started at a 24+), and a new pretty white shirt.. I'm psyched! I love when stuff is looser!! I hope everyone is having a great weekend!!!

Just a quick FYI

Hey, bloggers!! I'm sorry I've been kinda quiet the last couple of days.. I'm working LOTS, I barely have down time.. Grr.. Anyway, I should be free tomorrow afternoon so I'm hoping to catch up with all your blogs then!!!

Happy Saturday!!!

Well, it's 6:15am on Saturday morning.. I've been up since 5ish and am getting ready for a looong 9 hour shift at work.. Bleck.. There should be a law against having to get up this early on a Saturday! lol!!

But it's supposed to be bright and sunny and warm, so I'll deal.. :-)

I'm excited for tonight, there's a Saturday Night Live special on, the 90's it's called, or something like that.. I guess kinda like a 'best of'.. Well I loved the 90's at Saturday Night Live.. That's when they had all the greats!! Will Ferrel, Adam Sandler, Mike Myers, Dana Carvey, I could go on and on but I won't! lol!! So if you're an SnL fan you should check it out!!

Have a very happy, sunny Saturday blogland!! xo

Oh My Goodness!

I am SO tired.. What a long day.. I didn't sit once in the entire 8 hours I worked, and I know people do that everyday, but not many of them do it carrying this amount of weight around.. lol!! It's cool though cuz when I feel this tired I think, hmmm, but maybe the scale will be down a bit next week.. I think that's one of the biggest things I like about my job, and for so long I've been dealing with these short shifts, it'll be nice getting some long ones again!

Soooo, thanks for the skinny vibes!! :-) I'm down 4 lbs this week.. It's funny cuz within the first 4 days I jumped down, probably because it was mostly water retention, and then stayed the same the last few.. I find it hard when that happens.. 4lbs is an awesome loss, and I'm SO psyched about it, but when you weigh yourself that early in the week you almost try to loose more and then get disappointed when it doesn't happen! lol!! I know, easy answer, stay off the scale.. But heck, I'll take the disappointment, I love weighing myself often! Well, maybe 'love' was too strong of a word.. lol! Either way, I'll take it!!

A few things that I need to work on for this WI week: get my water intake wayyyy up and cut at least some of the snacking at night, even if it is within my points (I like to have some flex left at the end of the week, not all, but maybe 1/4 of them)..

Happy Thursday!!

Thanks everyone for all your great comments!! I feel so loved! You totally made my day! And I'll need that positivity.. I woke up this morning and found out that my boss had phoned and wants me to work until 9pm! Bleck!! I'm pretty annoyed, but what can you do?? Needless to say I was in a VERY grumpy mood until I read your comments, so THANK YOU!! The town of Renfrew will meet with a much nicer customer service person today thanks to you! lol!! (Nah, I'm always nice, but I'll enjoy my day more now that's for sure!)..

I think the thing that was annoying me the most was that I had plans for today! My shift was only a 4 hour one, which I love.. Today is my first WI back on track, but I don't WI until evening, well afternoon but now it'll be evening! And I was wanting to come home and spend some time blogging before Survivor and Greys and the gazillion other shows I watch on Thursday nights.. Ohh, well, that's why they call it work right?

So I won't have a WI update now until tonight, I'm pretty sure I know what it'll be so I'm not too nervous.. I hope everyone has a great, Sunny, Thursday!!! :-) And thanks again! I love you guys!! ~oxoxo

Just Cuz..

On my blog an excuse is NEVER needed for posting a picture of Jim Morrison..

Isn't he loverly?? ~sigh~

I'm Back..

For the life of me I couldn't think of a better title than that, but I guess "I'm Back" does sum it up.. For some of you this will be a repeat, and I'm sorry you have to hear it all again.. lol!! For those of you who haven't, this post is simply me apoligizing for being away for so long.. More importantly, for being away without taking the time to tell you what was going on.. If I worried any of you I'm terribly sorry.. I went off the program, and stupidly assumed that if I wasn't on program that I'd have nothing to say that people might want to hear.. Dumb eh?? What I've come to realize through all of this is that I've made some amazing friends, friends who are my friends whether I'm loosing weight or stuffing my face.. I'm sorry it took this to make me realize that, but I did and I'm glad that I did because I feel closer to these people now.. I hope with all my heart that it will do the same with those of you who haven't heard from me at all in the past month..

This is the story..

I posted on the board a few months ago about having really dry scalp and dandruff.. This is something I've thankfully never had to deal with before now, so I didn't handle it very well.. I was advised by people on the board and by my pharmasist to use special shampoos, which I didn't do.. I tried instead to take oil supplements and to up my water intake.. When I noticed a dry patch of skin I wouldn't leave it alone I'd try to scratch it all off.. lol!! I'm such a dumbass sometimes.. So of coarse it kept getting worse and worse, and more and more stressful.. Then one day I noticed that I'd actually lost a significant amount of hair on the front of the top of my head, enough that it made the icky white scalp beneath glaringly obvious.. Anyway, I kinda lost it at this point.. It was one thing when I had dandruff, but my hair falling out? Right before my 30th birthday?? Not cool.. People kept telling me that it was probably stress related since it happened after I started my job.. So I not only tried to remove ALL stress from my life, I just gave myself free reign to do whatever I wanted, and to eat whatever I wanted.. It was a really hard period for me, I was crying constantly.. I have a very public job and I felt like there was a flashing arrow above my head pointing it out..

I'm not making excuses for why I didn't let any of you know what was going on, I fully admit that I handled that badly and I'm truly sorry.. I just thought that you would all be disappointed in me, or try to convince me to stay on program while this was happening, and I just didn't want to hear it, I guess.. Mostly I was afraid you'd be disappointed..

So I'm back, and I'm sorry for being away.. I've learned that no matter what's going on in my life that my friends are my friends and that they're there whether I'm loosing weight or eating a tub of ice cream, and I won't ever disappear like that again.. For those of you who are just hearing this for the first time, I hope very much that you'll continue to visit my blog, and forgive me for being such a shit.. :-)

Yummiest Brekkie/Lunch EVER!!

Morning bloggers!!! It's an okay day here in Eastern, Ont., the sun is trying really hard to come out which is great!! For a little while there I thought I actually 'would' be working the Garden Center in the rain.. lol!!

I don't talk much about what I eat on here, for some reason it's still a private thing for me, I don't really get why, but I don't think I could post what I eat everyday.. Anyway, I don't mind posting about the odd, really yummy, meal.. This morning for breakfast I toasted a whole wheat english muffin, sprayed it with the Becel cooking/topping spray, used two veggie salami slices, one on each side of the eng muffin.. Divided one No Name light cheese slice (these are really good, they taste exactly like Kraft but cheaper, MUCH better than Black Diamond too), between the two halves.. Here's the good part.. I bought these little cartons of egg whites, and they're really yummy!! Who needs yolks?? Not this chick.. So for 8 tbsp it's only 1 point!! I used the Becel spray in a shitty non stick pan, and divided the eggs between the two eng muffin halves, on top of the cheese, and it was AWESOME!!!! And only 4.5 points.. The two veggie salami slices are only .5 points, so that's a REALLY good deal.. Now, I love these things, I use them on sammiches too.. I think that you might like them with eggs, and they're a lower point alternative.. They're made by Eyves, yeah I'm probably spelling that wrong, but I don't have time to go check!! lol!!

Thanks for all your comments yesterday!! :-) And have a great Friday!!

the only thing that was missing...

So, today started my crazy tanning obsession!! lol!! I was sitting here and all of a sudden thought, I need to go tanning.. So I called up the tanning salon that's just down the street from my house and they had an opening!! Yay!! So I slipped on my way too baggy blue jeans and my pretty pink crocs and off I went.. It was wonderful!! The ONLY thing that was missing was a nice pitcher of Margaritas!!! SUMMER, HERE I COME!!!! :-)

So my WI tonight was exactly what I thought it would be, so no exciting news there.. I'm down 1 lb.. I have to admit that I was a lil annoyed, I know a pound is great, but who doesn't want to loose more?? So in a way it's just fueled my fire for next week!! Now, please don't get me wrong, I am VERY happy that I lost a pound, I'm just the type that always wants to do one better than what I actually accomplish.. lol!!

Today was a beautiful sunny day here in the Ottawa Valley!! Work was good, but slow.. They're opening the Garden Center tomorrow and I get to work there for about 45 min, just covering someone's break, and I think that's gotten me all ready for the summer and beautiful weather!! Watch it start pouring!! lol!! That would be too funny.. Hope everyone had a great Thursday! ! :-)

OMG!! I can't believe I forgot to tell you!! When I got back from tanning, after hiking my damn jeans up the whole walk there and back, I decided to try on my size 20's.. And to my pleasant surprise I can almost do them up!! I was REALLY shocked by this since a couple weeks ago I could get them up over my thighs and ass, but couldn't come close to fitting them over the tire!!! And I could 'almost' do it up!! I probably wouldn't have been able to come close to zipping them, but it's still a huge NSV for me!! Yay!!!

Happy Over-The-Hump Day!! (hehe, not Jens kinda hump day! lmao!!)

Don't have much to say today.. I'm really sleepy.. I ended up opening this morning at work and got up a little after 6am, and went to bed at midnight.. Not too smart, Jen.. lol!! But I don't work until 1pm tomorrow so it's all good, I can sleep in a lil..

Weighed myself this afternoon and I was down 1 lb, which is good.. I was actually a little surprised what with the new exercise I'm doing..

Work was stressful, as always.. I get so made at people sometimes, they return the stupidest things!! Like, I had one customer who had bought a package of 6 donuts that were good until March 31 (this was also two days ago), and he returns them and wants his money back cuz they're stale.. But he's already eaten half the donuts!! Now, I'm sorry, but it doesn't take three normal sized donuts to realize that something is stale!! Can you say, ripping off the store?? lol!! Man.. But we're very 'the customer is always right', which I get, but I also think there should be a limit, especially since this guy apparently does this ALL the time!!

Okay enough customer bashing.. He's a really nice man, and I shouldn't be speaking badly of any of my customers.. It's just that sometimes, in my mind, I think that's pretty close to stealing them.. But then I tend to be hard on people sometimes.. lol!!

I LOVE Care Bears!!! If it wasn't weird I'd start buying them.. lol!! So I'm gonna post a care bear for you, from this awesome site I found!!

In honor of all of you, I'm posting Friend Bear! :-)

Need a good friend? Friend Bear would love to be your best buddy Bear! She's the perfect example of a friend. She's caring, likes to play with you and she's fun to be with!

Her Caring Mission ~ She shows how to be a great friend..

Symbol ~ Her twin, smiling flowers symbolize the joy of friendship..

Personality ~ Kind and friendly..

Character Quirk ~ A real chatterbox, she doesn't always know when to be quiet..

Best friend ~ Love a lot Bear

Motto ~ I've got a friend for you - ME!!!

lol!!! Isn't that the cutest thing ever?? When I have kids, they're getting Care Bears!! They're awesome and teach really important things!! Yeah, I'm a lil cheesy, so what!! lol!

What the heck is that big yellow ball in the sky?

Could it be??? YAY!! It is, the sun!! lol!! I swear it's been FOREVER since I've seen you!! And what better day to shine than the day I have to get out there and clean up the back yard?? I love my dog, but there's always a time after the snow melts when I question whether being a pet owner is really all it's cracked up to be.. hehe.. I'm just joking, it's not that bad, and I would NEVER trade her for anything in the world!! Plus, it's exercise right?? I'm also determined to get onto the elliptical and to do my strength training.. I've been very religious with it so far.. On my days off work I do 20 min/2 km on the elliptical and then 40 minutes of strength training.. This is only my second week doing it, but already I feel like it's becoming routine.. I'm not expecting much of a loss this week though, actually I'd be happy to STS.. It seems like whenever I start to workout it takes a bit of time for my body to get used to it and for those muscles to actually start working to burn the fat.. I'm okay with it though cuz I know it's good for me and in the long run it's going to make the difference!!

Thanks so much for your awesome posts yesterday!! I totally cried!! You girls ROCK!! And once again I'm left wondering, what would I do without you??? ~ xo

Sick of being in the Fat Chick Mafia..

I'm not sick of blogging or talking with any of you, but I'm sick of being fat, or rather the mentality that comes with being fat.. Today at work I saw this girl that I used to go to school with.. Now, she and I were never friends, we have/had friends in common though and would say hello when we saw eachother.. I haven't seen this girl in a few years, but she hasn't changed at all, and I haven't really changed that much besides the fact that I'm bigger than I was.. I have NO idea if she saw me or not, but she didn't look over and say hello when she came into the store, even though she had to walk by Customer Service where I work.. What pisses me off isn't that she didn't say hello, cuz in reality I don't care about this girl beyond normal human compassion.. What bothered me is that I equated it to my weight, she didn't say hi because she was embarassed to say hello to a fat chick.. Why do I do that?? I don't always think that way, but then usually my confidence is relatively good.. I didn't feel like I was having a low self-esteem day until after that happened and I was trying to figure out my reaction.. Now, I joined facebook a few days ago and am reconnecting with a lot of high school friends, and while NONE have made me feel that way and all have been happy to add me or message me, I still have this old high school feeling about it all... Could it be that I've reverted into past ways of thinking?? Strange, isn't it??

Thanks for all your posts yesterday!! I am going to post some progress pics soon.. I'm thinking when I get home from Kingston that I'll have some good ones to share with you.. I still think that the changes other people are seeing are minimal, I have incredibly supportive people in my life and sometimes I think that they comment on 'little' things so that I feel postive, and I SOOO appreciate and love them for it, I'm just not sure there's much to take a picture of at the moment, if you know what I mean.. lol!

My WI was on Thursday, and I've decided to really pay attention to my point intake.. I think it really helps your weekly losses if you eat different amounts daily, kinda like Wendie.. So I had a normal day on Friday, two higher days Saturday and Sunday, and am trying to have a lower day today.. I don't actually follow Wendie, she's my big gun that I'm saving for when I need her, but I'm trying to incorporate the idea of Wendie into my daily eating.. I'm pretty sure that's why I had that really good loss the week before last (actually it was Sarah that pointed that out to me, THANK YOU!).. Tonight for dinner I'm making one of my usuals, whole wheat rotini pasta with primavera sauce and lotsa shrimp.. I stocked up on Smart Pop today so I'm all set!!! Okay, I'm off to check up on all of you!! Thanks for listening to my rant!! :-)

Grooooaann

So last nights' dinner went really well!! The spaghetti turned out really well and my Uncle said that I can do amazing things with ground soy.. He said that he wouldn't even know it wasn't ground beef.. Which from him is a very big compliment, as he does enjoy his meat.. And it's a lower fat alternative which is great.. If you ever want to try it let me know and I'll give you all my secrets.. hehe.. lol!! I made garlic bread with that pre-mixed garlic butter, fresh bread and regular mozza cheese, it was SO good, and I only allowed myself one very small piece.. I even had a tablespoon of fresh parm.. Mmmm.. The one bad part? I drank too much wine!! I'm actually not sure why I'm surprised by that.. So most of my points were from wine, but thankfully because I was well behaved during the day, I only had to use 9 flex.. Yay!! But now I have an icky hangover and the munchies! lol!! That's okay though, if I use any flex I prefer it to be well before WI day..

I got quite a few NSV's last night.. I wore one of my prettier shirts and my blue jeans, and I guess it was obvious that the spare tire had deflated a lil bit.. I was thrilled by this news!! I have a hard time noticing a difference since I see myself everyday.. I have noticed that my clothes are getting bigger around my middle, but I wasn't sure it was obvious yet.. I have this beautiful pink shirt, I should take a picture of it to show you I always forget I can do that! lol!! Anyway, when I bought it, it was really tight around my belly so I've never been able to wear it.. Today I tried it on because I would LOVE to be able to wear it in Kingston at my bday dinner, and it fit!!! YAY!! It's baggy, but not super baggy, which is good.. So now I just have to buy some new shoes and figure out what jewelry to wear! :-)

We had birthday cake at my Grandma's this afternoon for my Mom's bday.. I hadn't eaten yet since I'd slept pretty much right up until we had to go.. hehe.. Damn hangover.. Anyway, I brought one of my Skinny Cow sundae cups with me (2 points!!) it was yummy and I didn't mind at all that I didn't get to eat any cake!!! But since my bday is next there was lots of talk about cake and dinners, and I'm afraid there's gonna be lots of poundage gained around that time.. I'm going to Ktown the weekend of the 13th, and I've planned to not count points and just have a treat myself weekend for that time.. BUT, I don't want to do that over my real bday weekend.. So, my cousin asked if I wanted to go out to dinner that weekend with another cousin (he and I share a bday, both on April 9th).. I picked the restaurant and they've got a really yummy Greek pizza that's not too bad point wise.. Afterwards we'll be going back to my Grandma's for Dairy Queen cake (my favorite), and I'll have some of that.. And then Monday night we're having a family dinner here for me, but again I'll get to pick what we eat.. Sooo, I'm thinking I'll just have to be really strong that weekend, as it's also Easter weekend, and we always have a big family dinner to celebrate on the Sunday after church.. I have to be tough!! Sorry, this is really long, I'm gonna stop babbling now!! lol!! Hope you all had a great weekend!! :-)

Ahhh, the weekend..

I feel like I haven't posted in forever!!! Yesterday before work I wanted to, but was having internet connection problems, so I didn't even get to check anyone elses blog!! Grrr.. I worked until 9pm last night and was SOOO stressed out when I got home because I had THE WORST customer in the world.. Even bigger Grrrr.. So here I am and it's already Saturday and I feel SO out of touch with blogland! lol!!

Thankfully I have the weekend off work.. My Mom's birthday is tomorrow, so tonight we're having my Aunt, Uncle and Grandma over for dinner.. I'm making a huge pot of veggie spaghetti (made with ground soy instead of ground beef).. With lots of garlic and fresh mushrooms.. It's great too because that recipe is completly points friendly.. I'm making them loaves of garlic bread with lots of garlic butter and regular mozza cheese on top.. They'll also have lots of fresh parm for their pasta.. I'm not sure if I'll just use a little fresh parm or go with my already grated Kraft parm.. lol!! For desert we're having fresh fruit, and I'm making a cool whip dip with lemon jello crystals mixed in for flavor.. It's awesome, and the cool whip is light, so I'm going to make a little with my sugar free jello too.. All in all it should be a very point friendly evening for me.. Except for the gallon of wine I'm planning on drinking.. hehe.. Not really a gallon, but quite a few glasses anyway.. I LOVE red wine and I never let myself have it, so it's my treat for the week.. Tomorrow afternoon we're having cake for her at my Grandma's house, and I of coarse, will bring my own seperate little treat to have while they're eating yummy cake..

It's funny though, you'd think that I'd be feeling cheated, or sad because I can't eat everything they can eat.. But I totally don't! It's all worth it to me.. And my birthday w/e in Kingston is coming up soon and I don't plan on counting the entire time I'm away.. I'm cool with the 2, 3 or 4 pounds that I'll put on, and then I'll work hard the next week to take it all off.. It's keeping me on track knowing that I can have my own cake soon.. :-)

Hope everyone is having an awesome weekend!!! I'm determined to get all caught up with each and every one of your blogs very soon!! :-)

It's that time again...

So, I've decided to keep Thursday as my WI day.. Mainly because when I got to work, still undecided, I noticed that the schedule has me working the same shift next Thursday, but that next Fridays shift is a short one too.. After a moment of frustration I realized that's the way my job is, I don't have a set schedule, my shifts are rarely the same.. It's silly to move my WI days around my work schedule.. I know what I need to do on/before WI's, that's all that matters, so I decided right there that I was sticking with Thursdays!! I'm such a geek sometimes, I swear!! lol!!

Soooo *drumroll* I weighed in when I got home from work and I was down 2 lbs!! Yay!! I'm pretty psyched about it because I was positive I'd stay the same this week after having a better than normal WI last week.. So yep, I'll take it!!

So to celebrate my happy WI I treated myself to my usual post WI meal, a super yummy Dr. Oetker's mozzarella pizza!! I topped it with some onion, tomato and a few sliced green olives.. I love me some pizza!!! It's probably one of my biggest weaknesses, but I figure it's an okay one as long as it's in moderation and it's not the fast food greasy kind.. The good thing about having it the night of my WI is that I have a whole week to redeem myself.. lol!!

Thank you guys for all your supportive comments today!! You rock, and it's SOOOOO appreciated!! :-)

It's a blustery blahhh day here in Eastern Ontario

Yep, it's icky outside and I feel icky!! I kinda feel like Eeyore actually.. lol!! Today is supposed to be my WI day.. But since my work schedule came out, I've been thinking I should switch my WI to Fridays.. I always get my best results after working a long shift, and I USED to get those shifts on Thursdays, but for the last lil bit (last week not included), I've been getting shit shifts on Thursdays and Fridays have been my long shifts.. So I think that's why I'm cranky, cuz I can't make up my mind.. I like to weigh in on Thursdays, but I really like what I see after a long day of work.. I think I'm feeling a little pressure because I normally weigh in on Thursday nights, so I feel like I have to make up my mind before WI time or it's cheating.. Like you can't see your WI and then decided to WI the next day instead, you know?? Bahh..

For the most part Weight Watchers is a very positive experience for me, mostly because I feel healthier and I know I'm doing something about my weight and that combines to make me a much more positive person.. But last night right before bed I got super angry all of a sudden. It was SO strange! It was all I could do not to bawl like a little baby.. I think I just got sick of caring so much, of having SO many emotions tied to loosing weight.. Of having to try so hard all the time.. I shook it off and went to bed, but I'm still feeling a bit of that this morning.. I'm not sure if any of you ever experience that kind of frustration with the program.. Maybe it's just because I have this weigh in day dilema underlying it.. Grr..

I'm going into work an hour early today so I can shop for makeup, that should brighten my mood a little bit.. lol!! But I wanted to thank all of you for your awesome comments about my willpower and the junk drawer at work.. Reading those comments this morning REALLY made a difference for me, like you gave me some sunshine on a grey day, if that makes sense.. Thank you for that!!

Justice is Served!!!

So I go into work today and what do I hear from my head manager as SOON as I get there?? They got the shoplifter guy!! Not only did they get him, but they got my camera back!!! YAYYYY!!! So he'll be prosecuted and all that good stuff.. I almost want to go to court just to see it! lol!! Seriously I totally took it personally.. I guess I don't have a whole lot of experience with shoplifters.. Anyway, they got him and the camera and that's all that matters!!

I picked up some Weight Watchers bread today, I can't believe that it's only 1 point for 2 slices.. That just seems amazing to me.. I'm SO proud of my little town, or more importantly my store, because we actually have a lot of the products that I see mentioned in other blogs or on the GDT.. I'm also really loving all of the Knorr pasta sauces (thanks Amanda!!), I tried the Primavera last night with shrimp and whole wheat rotini, it was SO good!! And today I picked up the Creamy Garlic.. OHHH, and I also found some cinnimon hearts that have a nutrition label!! Normally they come in these little square packages with no NI listed, but at work we sell them in bigger tubs (a co-worker bought some NOT me!! lol!), and there's actually NI on the label.. So if any of you like'em and want to know the info let me know!! We have a junk drawer there, in the Photo Lab, and they keep it stocked with everything, every kind of chocolate or candy you can imagine.. I have a fat picture of myself on a ledge right above it, so I'm never tempted to go into the 'junk' drawer! lol!!

Happy Hump Day!!! hehehe..

Morning blogland!! It's bright and sunny here and the snow is melting away (again)! I heard on the radio that it's supposed to go up to 12 by the end of the week!! WOOHOO!! I'm SOO ready for that!!!
I'm sure all of you have tried these lil gems before, but just in case you hadn't I had to give them a shout out.. I LOVE them!! I just had one for breakfast with a Source raspberry cranberry crumble and an All Bran bar, and I feel great! The best part?? They're only 1 pt!!! Now I'm a bit of a cheese freak, but I've ALWAYS loved Babybel cheese, and when I found out I could still eat them I was pretty psyched.. With a couple crackers they'd also make an awesome afternoon snack!


Well, I'm off to work now!! I don't have time to check any of your blogs this morning unfortunetly, cuz I'm running a little late, but I'll be checking in when I get home from work!!! Hope everyone is having an awesome day!! :-)

Yayyy!!

So I spent most of my afternoon at the GDT and was inspired by a particular post.. I guess this girl wasn't feeling well today, bad head cold (not me), and wanted to know how many people workout when they're sick.. At this time I still felt pretty awful, but I read all of the replies and kept up with it throughout the afternoon.. Low and behold because of that post I was inspired to get off my butt!! I did 40 minutes of strength training exercises that I actually found on the Weight Watchers website.. They have exercises that cover upper body, lower body and core body.. I really liked them and could totally feel it afterwards... Well doing those exercises inspired me to get on the eliptical, so I did 20 minutes on there too!! I'm feeling pretty darn good right now!! Thank you for all your replies about working out, I really appreciate hearing all the different perspectives!! :-)

Kind of Annoyed

So I have the day off work today, and I had all of these great plans! I was going to eliptical, and then start a strength training routine that I would do along with the eliptical on each day off work.. I was all psyched about it because weigh in is on Thursday and I thought, what an awesome time to start this!! I keep hearing from people that it's bad to workout the day before a weigh in, so I thought Wednesday would be out for that reason.. I was SO excited! I even got help from Shaunna (thank you!!) deciding what weight my dumbells should be to start off with.. So then I wake up this morning and I feel like crapola!! lol!! I'm just blah.. And I'm afraid that I'd passout if I did any of the things I was excited about.. Grr!!! So instead I'm going to blog, spend some time on the GDT and download some music for my new toy.. Oh, and I'll probably take a LONG nap later!!

My question to you fine people is this, what are your opinions on working out the day before a WI?? Because if I'm feeling better tomorrow I may want to get on the eliptical for a little bit, or at least do the weight training thing.. Any thoughts?

Happy Birthday To Meee!!!

Okay, so it's not really my birthday.. BUT last night I got my first birthday present! :-) My birthday isn't until April 9th, a long while away yet.. But, my Mom, her husband, and my Grandma decided to go together and get me this pretty lil MP3 player from Sony.. I told my Mom that we had one at my store and that I really wanted it and she, knowing me SO well, knew that I'd want it early.. I'm taking the train to Kingston on the 14th of April, she knew I'd want to know how to use it and have all my songs downloaded long before then, which gives me lots of time to play with it.. I'm not sure if you can tell from the picture, but it's pink, and it holds 18 hours of music.. Not only that, but it comes with an armband so you can strap it to you when you're jogging or working out.. It also counts calories, has a stop watch and you can program it to play faster songs when you're moving at a faster pace, or slower songs when you slow down.. It'll just do all that on it's own!! And it's got a stopwatch, and you can program it to tell you when you've walked a km, or whatever distance you choose.. Isn't that cool?? Technology kills me! lol!! So I'm pretty excited about it, and am making lists of songs that I want to put on it.. My favorite thing about it?? The colour of course.. It'll match perfectly with my pink camera, and my pink cell phone.. Hee hee.. :-)

I had a pretty stressful day at work today.. On the weekend someone stole a $400 camera from my work section.. I was the only one working at the time, and it's always busy in our area, but I STILL feel responsible.. The security system that's supposed to prevent things like this from happening doeesn't work, so I had no way of knowing until I noticed that the camera was gone.. It sucks because I feel like he stole from me, not from my store.. Today was difficult because all of my bosses were in and the police were contacted.. I just felt so awful about it all.. I wish I knew who it was so I could hunt him down and kick his thieving ass!! I hate people like that!! Grrr.. Anyway, thanks for the vent! I talked to my head manager who I LOVE and she made me feel a lot better about it, and assured me that it can happen to anyone and not to worry about it, but to use it as a learning experience.. I felt much better after that.. I'd still like to kick his ass though.. :-(

Starting to feel much better cold wise! Thanks for all of your get well wishes! :-) I have tomorrow off work so I'm determined to do some psychology homework and get in some good workout time!! I want to see another loss this week!! I think I'm getting greedy, but in this case, I think greed is okay.. Well, I'm off to check out all of your blogs, hope you had an awesome Monday! :-)

Icckkk

I feel super icky today!! I'm soo sleepy and stuffed up and just have that weak and blecky cold feeling.. The worst part is, when I have a cold I eat like a crazy person!! You know the saying feel a cold starve a fever?? Well it's as if my tummy 'knows' it.. Or maybe it's all in my head.. Either way, I just wanna EAT! I have lots of flex left and all of todays points, so I'm gonna eat.. I'm just going to make sure that I don't over eat.. Grrr.. I hope this thing goes away fast!! I've been drinking lots of Neo Citron cuz it makes you feel all fuzzy and comfy.. And it has NO points!! lol!! Hope you're all having a great Sunday!! :-)

Good morning!!

HAPPY ST. PATRICKS DAY!!!!

So I'm not technically Irish, but any day that give you and excuse to drink beer all day long is cool with me! lol!! I always wished I was Irish though.. So I hope you're all doing something fun today!! I'm still nursing a massive head cold, so no green beer for me!! :-( I have to work today from 7-4, which normally would be an awesome shift, but because I feel like one of the zombies from Night of the Living Dead, I'm not looking forward to it as much.. lol!! Plus, we got a pile of snow last night and it promises to hold out throughout the afternoon.. Bleck! I was all into spring.. Have a great day everyone!! I'd love to hear about any fun plans you have, so I can live vicariously though you!! lol!! I'm off to finish getting ready for work! :-)